finished already.! :)

apesal aku rse mcm aku malasss sangat2 nak update blog ek sekarang..adakah sebab aku memang dah jadi pemalas..? ke sebab dah jadi manusia takde perasaan so takde benda yg nak ditulis atau diluah dlm ni.? bahahaha..tp yg penting, aku malas..mcm takde modal dah nak cakap ape..huk3..but i warn u, I WARN U, this entry will be a bit longggg...since aku dah banyak modal nak bercakap..bahahaha.. kalau rase malas nak baca, tak payah baca.. :)

anyway, at last, tamat sudah pengajian aku..last day of practical, 30th September 2011..sangat sedih since dah become a part of the company kat tempat practical aku..dah kenal semua and dah jd rapat..3 kali menangis woo...hahaha...rse mcm klakar ade gak.. =.=" yg paling buat aku haru, ayat salah seorang worker kat situ..dia mmg suka carik pasal ngan aku..suka menyakat n aku plak balas balik kat dia dgn bagi ayat 'power' sedas dua..hihi..then, tiba2 dia bagi ayat sedih dia kat aku,"dilla..ko last ari ni kan.?aku nk ckp, aku mntk maaf kalo ade terkasar bhsa ke ape ke.ye la, ko pun tau aku mcm mane ckp maen lepas je kan..nnti ko nak smbung blaja lagi kan.?blaja betul2, setinggi menara KL..ko jgn lupa kteorg kat sini.."..erkk..aku yg blur, jadi lah makin blur..terkujat, terharu, sedih, semua ade lah..huk3..tnpa sedar, leleh gak air mata aku..tsk.tsk.. T.T and also, sorg abang ni, yg dah aku anggap mcm abang sendiri..agak rapat sbb dia tau ape problems aku..*aku tak citer ape2 kat dia keh, dia sendiri tau by seeing my face je..huk3*..dia slalu bg kata2 semangat, suruh aku jadi kuat..alhamdulilah, aku jadi kuat..*ye ke?* T.T but i'm gonna miss them so much..boss yang sporting, kakak2 yg sekepala...Puan Aida, Kak Zila, Kak Az, Kak Dayah, Kak Rai, Abg Man, Rosli, Botak, Kak Nora, Kak Ina, Pak Cu, Suresh, Asran..semua tu antara yg agak rapat ngan aku..terima kasih banyak2 sebab bagi tunjuk ajar dan buat saya happy..eventough dpt partner se-praktikal yg macam aii..malas la nak sebut..tp bila kat tempat kerja, i'm happy, sincerely..just because of them.. :)) 2 3 hari kemudian, Puan (our boss), ckp yg dia dah rindu kat aku..office mcm sunyi semacam bila aku takde..hihi..terharu nye..aku buat kecoh sgt ke dalam office tu..? maybe..selalu gak gelak tak hengat dunia..bahahaha.. xD .habis practical bukan bermakna lupa diorang..i won't forget them, i won't forget sweet memories with them..banyak memori-memori kat situ..dan during my practical training jugak lah mengajar aku jadi manusia yg lebih matang, insyaAllah.. :) once awhile nanti, ade lah aku jenguk diorang..dalam Shah Alam je pun..rumah sewa aku ngan company bukan jauh..20 minit smpai sudah.. :)

then for 10 days, berusaha sekeras segagah mungkin menyiapkan report and ready for the slide show utk presentation on 10th October..pheww..such a mess back then..9hb heading to Kuala Pilah with girlfriends, i mean my classmates..teehee...miss them so muchos.! Lala, Skin, Kechik, Yani and Nadiah...(syg Ecah takde, kalau tak, mesti complete..tsk.tsk)..whatever it is, but still we r enjoy our time at Pilah..since itulah kali terakhir kteorg pegi Pilah.. :) stay 1 night kat Hotel Melang Inn..and have dinner kat Pekan Pilah, and jumpa the rest of our classmates, and cukup lah 17 org budak class, as student semester ke 6 (sem akhir) utk Diploma in Food Science & Technology.. :) darn, gonna miss them so much.! rindu masuk class bising huha2, but when lecturer comes in, semua automatic silence and focus ngan class (tp ade sesetengah tertidor, termasuk aku..bahahaha xD ) tp takde lah always tido okayyy...huk3..i miss when kteorg tengah buat lab, havoc semacam mcm budak2 tadika dlm class melukis je.. xD i miss when dekat2 nak final, semua akan co-operate share notes, share soalan2 sem2 lepas, share ilmu, share semua..then before masuk dewan periksa, all raise hands, baca doa moga2 dpt jawab dgn lancar..i miss when time buat lab report, semua compare result nak make sure result lebih kurang sama, and mane2 yg mistakes, will be corrected..i miss everything lah.! huk3..and the most obvious co-operate yg aku pernah nmpk, time kteorg dipindahkan ke Pilah..time tu, mmg semua bagi kerjasama..and alhamdulilah, now we are all graduated..syukur Ya Allah..eventough ade problems antara diri masing2, tapi itu takkan ganggu prestasi kteorg and still, kteorg kerjasama as a classmates..i am so proud to all of u, classmates..!! gonna miss u all so so so much.! :')
3 great years, i will never ever forget..ups and downs, kte same2 dah go through..and now we made it..syukur kepada Allah.. :) hope to see all of u again, time degree nanti..insyaAllah kalau semua ambik degree course yg same lah..huhu.. :')) paling buat aku sedih, time masing2 gerak tinggalkan Pilah last Monday, after the presentation..after presentation, Sir Eddie bagi ayat fulamak, aku nitis air mata..huaaa...sobss..thanks sangat2 kat semua lecturers, tanpa diorang, kteorg takkan sampai ke tahap ni..diorang sangattt banyakk membantu, especially Madam Baizura, Sir Eddie, Madam Marina, Sir Ami, Miss Rohasmizah, Madam Suzaira, Madam Fuziah, and our head of programe, Sir Helmi, and also mane2 lecturers yg tak sebut name ..i will never forget them.. :') then, lepas sesi terakhir with the lecturers, having a brunch jap kat depan PTAR, bergelak ketawa, and salam2..and then, that was really really make me urghh..nak nangess..huk3..check out dari hotel around 1 pm..and while in car, dalam kereta, i cry..yes, i cry sampai tertido2 okayy..and Lala was babbling, "dilla, why u sleep.!xda org teman kamek klaka2, semua tido"..teehee..sorry Lala..muah.! :D after that, kteorg tak balik rumah..we r straight to Sogo, KL..karaoke..! yeabbbaa..! i love karaoke..release stress..and we celebrate our 3 years of struggle in diploma level.. :)) nak tau.? aku rasa sangat2 puas hati sebab dapat nyanyi lagu Big Bang and Beast without help of their original voice...teeeheee..dah boleh jadi org Korea.. xD 2 days in a row, aku, Lala and Skin g karaoke..me and Skin sleep over kat kondo Lala for 1 night..pastu bila balik Shah Alam balik, pergh, rase tired teramattt..nak sambung shopping ngan Skin pun jadi tak larat..huk3..then, on Thursday, Skin balik Perak..feel a bit bored, sebab my roomate, Sue, busy with her class, assignments, lab report, etc..mane leh kacau dia buat keje..and aku.? online, online, makan, makan, Korea, Korea tak kira lagu ke, movie ke, drama ke..pastu, tido, tido...zzz..sah2 naik berat badan..sia2 diet.. T.T dah balik Kuching ni, sah2 la makin naik berat badan..aigoo..teeeheee...tapi kan, for the very first time, aku rasa tak nak balik Kuching...tak nak balikkk..nak stay kat Shah Alam.. ;(( tapi HARUS balik jugak, sbb mak suruh..kalau tak, mmg aku tak balik..tsk.tsk..gonna miss my life kat Shah Alam..huaaaa...! :((

sigh..4 months of practical training, i've gone through so many things, too many tears and too many happiness...but it teach me how to be more strong, more independent and appreciate with what i have.. :') and oh, i can see which one i can trust and i can't trust, and so-called friend..kalau tak kenal maka tak cinta..tapi masalah aku, bila dah kenal, perangai macam puaka.. =.=" biar lah..malas nak pk..benda dah lepas..dah tak kan jumpa lagi, kot? huk3..and now, tengah pk, ape aku nak buat selama cuti 5 bulan ni, sebelum intake degree next year..hahaha..keje.? maybe..as a sales girl kot, tak pun, nak jadi tutor kat tempat2 tuisyen..not decide yet...tp for now, nak rileks sepuas2 hati dlm rumah..nak ganti semua tidor yang tak cukup time practical tu..yeeebbbaaa..!! :D toddles.!

ujian dari Tuhan..

lama dah tak update blog..perghh..almost a month, i guess..huhu..sorry fellas..agak busy..before balik Kuching, busy pindah barang dari Pilah nak ke rumah sewa kat Shah Alam..then busy accompany my parents shopping kat KL..then sampai Kuching, busy with tahlil arwah my auntie..then tidur kat kampung, teman mak cik kat kampung..rase sedih sgt2 bila kat kampung..aku still tercari2, mana nenek..selalunya, if nenek tengok aku balik, mesti dia akan tanye,"eh, dila bila sampai..? lama tak cuti.?"..then if aku teringin nak makan something, mesti akn suruh dia yang masak..she's the best chef i've ever known..segala masakan dia, sangat2 sedap..lagipun, aku memang close dgn dia..sometimes, i feel like she knows me well drpd my own mother..dia sangat manjakan kteorg as her grandchild..dapat jaga dia selama seminggu time dia sakit dulu, pun aku terasa bersyukur sebab diberi peluang utk jaga dia..and i still remember her eyes, her touch, her voice..everything..grandma, i miss u so much..nobody can make me cry other than u..nenek sorg je yg boleh buat air mata aku jatuh, even dlm keadaan happy..actually, i am strong enough dah..alhamdulilah..tapi bila teringat pasal nenek, memang my tears akan jatuh.. :'(


oh ya, i have mention tahlil arwah my auntie before this right.? my auntie, i called her Auntie Jane..sepupu kpd mak, tp close dgn kteorg..sebulan lebih lepas nenek meninggal, auntie plak kena admit kat hospital. because dia ade breast cancer and liver problem. mula2, mak cakap, just liver problem sebab dia memang kuat merokok. then tak lama lepas tu, mak cakap she has cancer..and i ask mom, what stage.? dah stage 4. Ya Allah..stage 4..peluang sgt2 tipis..patut la auntie selalu pakai scarf and selalu sakit kepala & demam2..rupa2 nya dia sembunyikan dari pengetahuan kteorg yang dia tgh suffering from cancer..aku sangat2 terkejut..serius if korg tgk dia dulu, memang tak macam org sakit..she looks fine.even dia cakap dia demam, dia still lincah mcm org demam biase je..tapi rupa2nya, dia tak nak org tahu yg dia tgh melawan her kanser. then, 27th of April, habis je paper ke-5 utk final exam aku petang tu, paper Food Sensory, my mom called..dia cakap, auntie dah nazak. dia tak dpt bernafas without bantuan oksigen. dan aku plak, aku dah rse lain mcm..coz everytime aku dgr, if org tu dah tak leh bernafas tnpa bantuan oksigen, means something akan berlaku..i was with Liza time tu, baru lepas abes mkn ptg..then aku balik bilik nak kemas2 barang before dibawak balik ke Shah Alam.. then, before maghrib, mak call balik. she said, "dila, please be tough for this time okay..ur auntie, dah xde..she's gone, dila..sayang jgn down keh..tgh final exam tu..fokus for ur last paper..okay.?"..and i was speechless..tak tahu nak cakap ape..aku have to go through one last paper before cuti semester, and terima pulak berita mcm tu..Tuhan je tau ape perasaan aku.. i was crying as much as i could..aku langsung tak sempat jumpa auntie, sebab memang sekejap je die kena admit kat hospital, then she's gone..dia dah pergi jugak, ikut nenek..memang tak tahu dah nak buat ape..then Liza, Miemah, Ubey, Fahmi, and sorg dua kwn aku keep me accompany..bagi semangat, jadi kuat and habiskan last paper exam..jgn sedih..then aku cuba kuatkan semangat..aku try fokus balik study for my last paper..tapi time exam last paper tu, i was totally lost my fokus..then aku pun tak tahu ape yg aku jwb utk paper tu..kepala otak dah ingat nak balik je, nak jumpa my family..


then, now..our great grandparent plak..a few days ago, dia kena admit kat hospital.then, semalam, my Mak Cik Angah said dia dah guna oksigen..then phm2 lah bila dah guna oksigen kan..dan ptg tadi, time azan Isya', Mak Cik Angah call lagi, ckp dia dah takde..Innalilah..baru lepas mkn tahlil 20 arwah auntie, sekarang, great grandparent plak yg pergi ikut nenek and my auntie..eventough bkn our real great grandparent, dia atok kpd ayah sepupu aku, tp kteorg terasa jugak..ye la, dah berdepan dgn 2 kematian, dan skrang yg ni plak..memang tahun ni, Allah S.W.T sgt2 menguji kekuatan kteorg..lepas satu, satu..mungkin Allah terlalu sygkan kami, sebab tu la Dia uji kami dgn sebegini hebat..dan mungkin jugak peringatan dr Allah S.W.T, dimana bila2 masa Dia boleh ambik nyawa kta balik..


Al-Fatihah untuk nenek, my auntie & our great grandparent..semoga roh mereka dicucuri rahmat Nya dan ditempatkan dgn golongan org2 yang soleh.. Amin Yarabalalamin..mereka akan sentiasa ada dalam ingatan kami..


dan buat nenek, aku akan selalu mengingat dirinya, merindui dan menyayangi nya.. i miss u so much, nenek..so much.. :'( Al-Fatihah..

give me some break please.!

tsk..tsk..~ letih..letih..bagi masa utk aku bernafas boleh.? hailoooh.! semester ni, subjek tak banyak..tapi keghoje menimbun ni haa..alih2 lagi ade 2 weeks before final exam, lagi la mampos...food launching 9 April..sehari sebelum, presentation utk entrepreneurship..MUET lagi...huaarrgghh..~ mau gila aku tauuu... T.T


food launching tu, mane nak buat banner lagi, poster lagi, formulation lagi, pamphlet lagi, materials lagi..dengan lab dkt kampus ni yg hareeemmm...ishh..kalau kat shah alam aku rse, semua boleh settle dgn cepat..nasib baik our lecturers semua membantu..kalau diorg lepas kteorg mcm tu je, terkapai2 nak buat, sape nak jwb.? bajet kteorg untuk food launching ni pun, dah brape kali kena reject..nsb baik last2 diorg approve gak..bak kata madam bai, kalau kat shah alam, sehari je boleh settle..kat kmpus cawangan ni, byk songeh, byk prosedur..dgn layanan lagi mcm ntah la, tak tau nak describe mcm mane.. T.T


entrepreneurship..pergghh..buat business plan, bajet mcm betul2 je..ade management plan, organization plan, operational plan, financial plan, logo, name syarikat, motto, visi, misi..dah la bermain ngan amount duit yg besar2..just try imagine kte memang betul2 nak buat business..sabo je lah...aiii...


oh MUET...? next week MUET.!! huk3...6hb, speaking test..16hb, writing, reading & listening test..berdebar2 aku..mcm nak sit exam SPM je..tp syukur lah, MUET bukan time kteorg final exam nnti...harap2 aku tak tersasul2 ckp melayu time speaking test nnti..hahaha..!!


and here it goes..dlm kurang dr 2 bulan lagi, tamat sudah semester 5 aku as a diploma student ni..then, dah ade diploma in my hand..hmmm..lps diploma, nak kahwin bley tak.? hahahhaa..!! gatai.! calon pun takde..aku nak sanding sorang2 atas pelamin..heehhe.. :D dah2..jgn nak gatal2 ckp nak kahwin..study2..wuwuwu..okayy..since this is my last semester, aku nak buat yang terbaik.! nak dpt pointer cantik punya..dengan 1 harapan, diserap masuk smbg degree..amin..amin..yarabalalamin.. =)


semester ni, memang banyak sgt dugaan..Allah s.w.t memang betul2 menguji aku..tp syukur sebab ade mak yang byk bagi semangat..dan kawan2, yg always ade by my side..hanya Allah yg mampu balas jasa diorang..thanks a loads to them..n i love them so much.! =) and in memories, my beloved grandmother, i will always miss you, grandma..tiap2 hari dila teringatkan nenek..moga roh nenek ditempatkan dlm golongan org2 yg beriman dan dicucuri rahmat Nya..amin..alfatihah..





okay..nak smbung buat kerja lah..malas nak layan emo2 nih..buat sakit je..hahaha...nak emo2, tinggal dlm gua je lah.! =.=" mcm bangang...*pfft*..toddles.!