mix feeling

anyeong.. :)

January 2013 dah nak smpai ke penghujung..then come February 2013..i hope things get more better, and Allah S.W.T will always give me the strength, inshaAllah.. :)

mix feeling.? hati ini berubah-ubah..kadang-kadang, rasa penuh dgn kasih sayang yg tak terhingga, rsa mcm nak sentiasa ada disisi..kadang-kadang, rasa hambar, rasa mcm kosong, mcm lagu Najwa Latiff..kenapa ek.? is this how me myself trying to protect my heart from getting hurt again.? or actually i am slowly getting tired with my own life.? aku sendiri pun tak leh nak control benda ni jadi..sesuka hati je benda cmni nak jadi, padahal badan jiwa dan perasaan sendiri..aku sendiri pun dah tak faham dgn diri sendiri..mcm mana tu.? tsk..tsk..pity me...~ =.="

tengok org ade boyfriend, aku pun rase mcm nak ade boyfriend gak..tengok org kahwin, aku pun rase mcm nak kahwin gak (nak kahwin camna kalo boyfriend pun tarak.?) ..tengok org pregnant, aku pun rase mcm nak pregnant (gila..~ laki pun tarak)..tengok org ade baby, aku pun nak ade baby gak..tengok org manje2 gedik dengan ayah sendiri, aku pun rase mcm nak manje2 gedik ngan ayah (which is, impossible).. tengok org ade abg kakak adik n nmpk close, aku pun nak ade abg or kakak or adik (sangaattttt impossible)..tengok org ade kereta sendiri, aku pun nak kereta sendiri (alhamdulilah dah ade kereta sendiri sekarang, my car is my boyfie now..~)...mcm pity gila babeng kan life haku..haha..puih..mcm geli plak..hekhek..

me currently..kerja?dah..dah jadi wanita bekerjaya..every month ada income sendiri, hasil usaha sendiri, so everytime shopping rase heaven sbb guna duit sendiri, tak menyusahkan mak lagi...kereta.? yup Alhamdulilah, i have one..finally i have my own car.! oh my Vivass la Vidass..~ilebiu..~ teehee...sahabat.?yes, i have not only one but 3..n i love my best best friend..hope till jannah, inshaAllah :) see, mcm aku dah ade semua je kan..but something empty..

maybe, ini salah satu gejala pompuan yg nak meningkat dewasa kot..haha..al maklum lah, 2013 nih, saia nak masuk 24 tahun sudah..ngaaa..24 years old..?? =.="

okay, done with babbling..nak g mandi..then nak ready2 baju utk kerja esok..then tepuk2 bantal, scroll2 lappy, click Running Man, open episode 127, there's my Gi-Kwang oppa, Jong-hyun oppa, Simon oppa, and my lovely Yong-hwa oppa...~.oh my oppas, they make me happy and jatuh cinta buat ke-ntah brapa byk kali..don't laugh at me, sbb that's the only way for me to fill my empty-ness,selain bersembahyang bersujud dan berdoa memohon ketenangan dari Nya..but since saia tgh kena 'bendera jepun',biasa lah,pompuan..~so Running Man is my cure..and yes, it's work..thank you Running Man.. :)

Babai..adios amigos.. As Salam.. :)

Cry

Crying.....is the most easiest way for me to let it all out.....~ :'(