hommies.! :))

even dengan line broadband mcm siput sedut demam, aku tetap gagah kan diri dan setia bersabar untuk menghupdate-kan blog.. =.=" *siyeshit sangat2 bengang dengan line celcom sekarang..haih.! nak tukar digi la kalau dah mcm ni.*

well..okay..nak gtau, semalam ( i mean,2 hari lepas..hihi), dengan selamat dan jaya nya abg pilot yg handsome menerbangkan kapal terbang dari LCCT pada pukul 4.50 pm dan mendaratkan kapal terbang di Kuching International Airport pada pukul 6.20 pm, dengan membawak puteri gunung santubong di dalam kapal terbang itu, iaitu aku..muahaha..*babbling..ignore.!* =.=" jangan jealous..~ aku dah balik kampung dan bersiap sedia nak raya..teeeheee... :P *padahal ramai lagi org lain yg dah balik kampung lagi awal dari aku..tsk..tsk..*..
pecah rekod, 3 month dah tak balik Kuching..perghh..hehe..alhamdulilah, masih bernyawa utk kembali ke tanah air sendiri.. :)) dengan new appearance from me, tiba2 berdiri depan mak, dan mak terkujat tengok aku..hihi..and dpt respon sngat2 positif dari mak, "dilla sangat cantik bila berhijab."..and i was, :)))...
okay..back to the track..smpai Kuching, azan Maghrib pun beralun merdu..then mak cepat2 bagi air, suruh aku minum dulu..tak baik melambat-lambatkan waktu berbukak..hee..pastu, me n mak heading terus ke SCR kat Satok..nak makan..my favourite nasi ayam forever, nasi ayam roasted kat SCR ( stand for Singapore Chicken Rice)..perghh..mabeles.! suke sangat2.! and aku order mknn mcm tak pernah mkn setahun.. =.=" hii..takpe..aku blanja utk makan kali ni..special for my mom.. :) since mak suke sangat2 tengok aku berhijab, then she wants to take my picture..nahhh...gamba aku melahap mkann.. :P

tadaaaa...~ besau kan air aku..ahhaha..lama dah tak minum 3 layer tea..akhirnya, dpt gak.. :DD

lepas abes mkn, borak2 jap ngan mak buat luahan hati..pastu, gerak g rumah Mak Angah..nak jumpa Tom yg comey alololo bucuk2...hihi..rindu sangat2 kat Tom..3 bulan tak jumpa, dah besau dia..makin comey plak tu..bulu gebu sangat2..sampai je rumah Mak Angah, Tom adalah benda pertama yg sambut aku kat pintu, terus pelok cium belai2 main ngan dia.. :)) Tom adalah kucing..kucing Parsi..aku bagi gelaran kat dia,'moving carpet'..sbb bulu dia mcm karpet..dah la gemuk..hihhi..tp kan, makin pemalas si Tom nih..asyik terjelopok atas lantai je..aku main ngan dia guna keychain kesayangan aku pun, setakat 2 3 kali je dia sambar2..last2, dia malas nak main sambar2 lagi, dia dok landing kepala dia tepi sofa..aiyoo..patut la makin gemuk..hee..sorry lupa nak ambek gamba Tom..sebab excited terlebey..hee.. :))) then, lepas gik rumah Mak Angah, g kampung jap, anta biskut2 yg aku tapau seguni besar *tipu je* dari Shah Alam..my Usu pun pesan beli almond london, and dia excited nak tengok biskut dia, so anta terus je la ke kampung..hee..then, around 11 pm, baru la balik rumah sendiri..perghh..masuk rumah, semua nampak lain..susunan perabot semua dah ubah..siap ade perabot baru plak tu..waaa..my mom memang SuperMak lah..hee.. :)))

back to today,*which mean semalam sebab dah lepas pukul 12..hehe*..bangun awal2 pagi anta mak g keje..then balik rumah iron baju, mandi, siap2 pakai make up perfume and seawal 10 pagi, aku dah gerak pegi rumah Miemah..hee..dah plan ngan Miemah nak g shopping raya jap..so we r heading to India Street..nasib agak menyebelahi kteorg sbb senang jumpa parking..yezza.! hihi..so, jln2..aku beli shawl lagi, beli inner and cardigan..then, Vane call kteorg tnye kteorg katne..sbb dia tgh lunch hour..nak jumpa kteorg jap..ingat kan dia nak ajak lunch skali...bahahaha..! agak2 le..puasa tak abes agi..next week boleh la g lunch same2 sbb puasa dah abes..hihih..then, lepas shopping2 kat India Street, aku n Miemah gerak g The Hills..Vane tunggu kat situ..so sambung shopping kat The Hills..(okay, utk sape2 yg tak tau The Hills tu katne..The Hills is one of the new shopping complex kat Kuching..lebih kurang mcm The Spring jugak..The Hills terletak kat Pullman Hotel, tak jauh dr Riverside Hotel, waterfront..since The Hills still new, so tak banyak agi kedai2 yg bukak.. :) ) okeh..dah smpai kat The Hills, jln2 with Vane plak..then, tersinggah satu kedai accessories nih..ternampak satu cincin yg santek..sangat2 santek..harga tak la mahal sangat..bukan berpuluh-puluh ringgit pun..hehe..so, pendek citer, aku terbeli lah cincin ni..adoyaiii...banyak betul aku berbeli..tak puas shopping kat shah alam, sambung plak kat sini..hehehe..jgn gtau mak..nnti mak marah..hahaha.. :P

the girls.. :) me, miemah and vane..thanks for accompany me today.. :))

the ring..cantek kan.? hehehe..suke design mcm ni..ntah nape, aku suke design yg besar2 gedabak..kat kedai yg same, ade jugak necklace yg cantek gak..kakak yg jg kedai tu, pakai necklace bentuk owl yg sgt cantek..tp malang nya, dah takde lagi da necklace tu..dan aku tegur dia la, necklace dia sgt cantek..nak jugakkkk..uhuk.!

shopping with my girls, tak leh lama2..sebab i have appointment dgn beauty salon nak buat facial muka pukul 3 pm..so lepas jalan2 kat The Hills, hantar Miemah balik..then i heading to beauty salon..lama dah tak buat facial muka..rasa lega dpt buang kotoran2 degil..cuma satu yg sedih, parut2 kesan campak mmg tak leh hilang..benci betul.. =.=" anyway, thanks mama, coz sponsor saia buat facial..hehe...lebiusomuch.! :D

abes facial around 5 pm, together2 with mak pegi bazaar kat Matang Jaya..sbb nak berbukak kat rumah auntie kat area situ gak..hehe..at last, dapat gak beli umai n ikan pari bakar..yebba.!.sampai rumah auntie, perghh..i can smell something nice..dari luar rumah dah boleh cium..baahahaha...auntie masak nasi ayam with roasted chicken..yeay.! i love it so much..hee.. :))

sorry..gambar agak kabur..hanfon tak canggih..hahaha..roasted chicken with salad, tomato n timun..hee..nmpk sedap..? memang sgt2 sedap..menjilat jari i makan tauuu...*latar belakang newspaper, sbb kteorg mkn atas lantai..so lapik dgn newspaper lah..hehe* :) tq so much, auntie.! for the nice meal utk berbukak hari ni..dan selera aku hari ni pun lebih banyak daripada biasa...ngeee...mampos..takut ar baju raya tak muat..uhuk.!

okayh..done for today..esok plak nak berbukak kat rumah nenek belah ayah...waaa..i miss my big bro & my big sista..*which is my cousins yg slalu aku mention2 tu.. :) * rindu ngan anak2 buah..nak bagi hadiah harijadi kat Danial..and nak cubit gigit2 pipi Darwish yg day by day semakin tembam tu..hihi.. :))

p/s : some words : It's hard to talk to someone when you still have feeling towards them and then, you just realize that they are just your friend, not more than that.. :'(

happiness.. :)

dah hari ke-24 Ramadhan..cepat kan masa berlalu..dan lagi 5 hari nak raya.. :) 

anyway, nak gtau, esok balik Kuching.! yebbbaaa..~ hihi..pecah rekod wooo, 3 bulan tak balik Kuching..tsk..tsk..huhu...tapi, rasa mcm cepat sangat2 masa berlalu..dah 3 bulan berlalu.. :) and SERIUSHIT, tak saba nak balik..rindu mak...rindu sangat2...huk3.. :(

and yes, my life getting so much better now..i've learn a lots of things..and i'm getting more happier..alhamdulilah..praise to Allah S.W.T..surround by great friends, and great family, and most important, the greatest mom in the world..i love you so much, mom..how can i live without u hear by my side.. :') and friends, my best friends..they are such the great person in the world..always be here, whenever i need them..willing to hear all my problems, and cheer me up when i'm sad..i am nothing without them.. :') and family, especially my cousins belah ayah, yg panggil aku as their adik bongsu since aku paling muda dlm 5 org cousins nih.hehe..they are my big brother and my big sister..who's always trying their best to protect me, trying their best to make me happy, trying their best supaya aku tak rasa alone tanpa adik beradik..and also, aku tak pernah rasa tersisih di sisi diorang..bila berkumpul2 kelima-lima sepupu ni(include me), memang riuh satu rumah..mcm2 citer klua..and aku mesti diberi tumpuan lebih, tak pernah rasa kurang kasih sayang dr diorang, even semakin bertambah biarpun masing2 dah kawin*aku sorg je tak kawin lagi..tsk.tsk*, even masing2 ade family sendiri, tinggal berlainan negeri/daerah, tp itu buatkan kteorg getting closer..anak2 diorang, jadi penyeri hidup aku..and, most important, they support me, tak pernah nak break me down..ape2 yg aku buat, diorang surely akan support aku..they complete me.. :') 

eventough byk masalah yg kena go through, dengan fiil manusia sekeliling yg macam2, tp my life dah cukup complete..syukur alhamdulilah, Ya Allah S.W.T..Kau beri aku orang2 yang terbaik dalam hidup aku..tanpa aku sedar, Kau berkati segala yg aku lakukan, walaupun dlm kesusahan.. :')

last but not least, to someone, that i knew since year 2007, thanks cause make me happy back now..even sometimes, we are having a broken heart, but at last, u r the one that makes me happy back..thank you so much..hope kta masing2 happy with our own life..and i pray for u, every single day, hope that awak sihat always and happy always.. :')

10 malam terakhir Ramadhan..semoga bulan Ramadhan tahun ini diberkati oleh-Nya..amin.. :) Selamat Hari Raya..hihi..awal gler wish..hahaha..takpe..nnti dah raya, wish lagi..*sorry, excited terlebey sbb nak balik esok..hihi..* :) toddles.!

move on..

and i guess, that was the last time i've heard his voice..lepas ni, mungkin takde lagi, melainkan Allah pertemukan kteorg balik..


mungkin this is the best for both of us..move on with our own life..dia dah ada pilihan dia sendiri..me.? ignore me lah..being single, independent and enjoy every single moment of my life now..lagipun, dlm hati ni masih sakit..perlu ambik masa lagi lama nak fix it..even sekarang, i still can feel the pain..tak sesakit dulu, but still feel it..tapi syukur alhamdulilah, sekarang i feel much better than before..Allah s.w.t always right beside me.. :')


utk awak..sy mntk maaf..bukan tak nak kwn..tp ni yg terbaik for both of us..sy tak nak everything jadi semakin complicated..sy tak nak ganggu hubungan awk..mungkin awk tak paham, tp sy tau mcm mane rsa bila someone hadir dlm hbgn, lebih2 lagi someone tu adalah org yg pernah kta sayang..sy dah pernah rsa sakit mcm tu..ingat lagi dulu.? bila kta masih couple, then there's come another person..? sy masih ingat..dan cukup la sy sorang yg pernah rsa sakit tu..sy tak nak girl awk sekarang rsa apa yg sy pernah rsa dulu..don't let her crying mcm sy slalu crying..don't let her hurt even once mcm sy yg slalu sakit..please do always make her happy..jgn bagi dia rsa dia keseorangan mcm sy slalu rsa..please, don't repeat ur mistake kat dia..appreciate her for the way she is..
awak..sy mntk maaf..bukan tak nak kwn..sy tak nak diri sy sakit..awk nak tengok sy happy kan..just tinggalkan sy terus..jgn dtg lagi..sy tak ckp awk jahat, tp sy tak nak sy sendiri mengharapkan benda yg mustahil akan terjadi..sy tau sy tak patut mengharapkan apa2..tp sy seorang perempuan,jiwa halus..sy nak pulihkan diri sendiri..bagi sy masa..kalau ade jodoh kta nak jd kwn, tak kemana..tp sy nak masa, utk pulihkan diri sendiri...sy letih menangis..sy letih bila malam2 sy tak dpt tidur sbb insomnia menyerang..sy letih bila sy mula mimpi psl awak dan it will make my pain come back..sy letih melayan diri sy sendiri..sy letih tenangkan diri sendiri bila sy mula tak tentu arah..sy letih lah dgn diri sendiri..sigh..


mntk maaf kalau sy banyak buat slh, slalu buat awk stress..sbb tu sy undur diri..sy nak awk be happy..i would rather sacrifice my own happiness, just for the one that i love..thanks for everything u have done..and i am sure, this is the best for us..don't come find me anymore..sy dah menyusahkan hidup awak..this time, i let you go, for ur own sake, for ur own happiness..sy akan sentiasa doakan kebahagiaan awk.hope apa yg awk nak, akan tercapai satu hari nnti..take a good care of ur self. :')


p/s : sometimes i say "moved on" but deep inside i know i'm stranded..cause as long as i feel the love, there will always be the pain..

she's 20.!

21st August 1991....


present, 21st August 2011...


she's 20 years old..! hehe..HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY to my girl aka my angel aka my best of the best friend, Liu Yi Hui @ Ubey..!! may God bless u, babe..hope u happy always and smile.! :))))

i still remember, 1st time aku kenal dia..*ceewah..mcm couple..haha.lesbo.! pfft :P* mula2 kenal, was not in a good situation..i still remember betapa aku tak suka teramat lah dia..hihi..*sorry syg!*..time tu dia rapat giler2 kat Mr.A..kira diorang mcm best friend..n aku cemburu, tak suka & rase mcm Ubey ni try rampas Mr.A dr aku..tp time tu, tak declare ag ngan Mr.A..relationship kteorg baru nak okay sbb lepas break..tgh fix hbgn ngan Mr.A ni..and tetiba la dtg Ubey..entah dr syurga mane dia dtg..hee.. :) *bukan perli okayyy..aku ckp dia dtg dari syurga sbb dia seorang sahabat yg baik & a person i can count on. :)*..dia dgn Mr.A sgt2 rapat..best friend..tp Mr.A cakap kat aku, dia dgn Ubey bukan berkwn, dan bukan jugak couple..tak dpt couple sbb atas reason tertentu..and that was hurting me so much..and saat tu la betapa aku makin tak suka ngan Ubey nih..ape yg aku tengok semua tak betul..tp lepas tu, Mr.A pilih aku, so terasa bangga kejap disitu ye..hahahah.. :P aku add Ubey dlm Facebook..Mr.A ni pulak tak nak aku n Ubey asyik slh fhm je..so, time birthday Mr.A last 2 years, Mr.A nak aku n Ubey become friends..tak nak ade salah faham..Mr.A tak nak his gurl & his best friend bermusuh..so, aku n Ubey okay je..jadi kwn..and jadi semakin rapat.. :D mula2 say hye..pastu kongsi2 citer..pastu, ber-inbox dlm Facebook..then, add dlm Yahoo Messenger..siap bertukar2 num phone skali..haha..& Mr.A didn't expect kteorg akan jadi sgt2 rapat..even now, after the break up with Mr.A, Ubey is still with me..every single day..dua2 tak expect yg kteorg akan jadi best friend..i mean, the best of best friend..ye la, don't judge a book by its cover..dulu bukan main anti..skrang dah rapat tak leh nak pisah..dan dia bukan lah seorang yg 'jahat' time aku mula2 kenal dia dulu..dah nama nya pun benci time tu, sbb tu semua jd 'jahat'..haha..bila dah kenal, baru la tau mcm mane dia sbnrnya..hee.. :D she understand me well..dua2 in the same situation..sometimes aku rse mcm dah kenal dia since baby plak..hahaha..pendek kata, aku sayang sangat2 kat dia..thanks for everything to her, cause i've become more stronger..ilovehersomuch.! :D best friends forever, Ubey..!! :)) ♥ ♥ ♥

without a word...

I should have done that

I should have ignore it

Like something I couldn't see

I shouldn't look at you at all

I should have run away

I should have acted like I didn't hear it

Like something I couldn't hear

I shouldn't have listened to love at all

Without a word, you let me know love

Without a word, you give me love

You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this

Without a word, love leaves me

Without a word, love tossed me away

What should I say next?

My closed lips were surprised on their own

Coming without any words

Why does it hurt so much?

Why does it hurt continuously?

Except for the fact that I can't see you anymore

And that you are not here anymore

Otherwise, it's the same as before

Without a word, you let me know love

Without a word, you give me love

You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this

Without a word, love leaves me

Without a word, love tossed me away

What should I say next?

My closed lips were surprised on their own

Without a word, love leaves me

Without a word, love tossed me away

What should I say next?

My closed lips were surprised on their own

Without a word, tears fall

Without a word, my heart breaks down

Without a word, I waited for love

Without a word, love hurts me

I zone out

I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky

Without a word, fire well finds me

Without a word, the end comes to me

I think my heart was surprised to send you away without any preparations

It came without a word

Without a word, it comes and leaves

Like the fever before, maybe all I need to do is hurt for a while

it is a Korean song..and performed by one of my favorite singer, Jang Geun Suk..tp this one dah ditranslate kan ke English..kalau aku bagi dlm Korean pun bukan korang paham sgt kan..even aku sendiri pun belum mahir sangat Korean language..still in process..huhu...

anyway, i would like to give this song to someone, yg pernah hadir dlm hidup aku..*sorry ayat aku poyo..lantak lah kan*..first time dgr lagu ni, i felt something..mcm ade kaitan with me, i mean the lyrics lah..since aku paham ckit2 bhsa Korea, so dah boleh agak lyrics mcm mane..then i googled it, carik dlm English translation, and yes, those lyrics was awesome..pendek kata la kan, mostly lagu2 Korea, their lyrics and songs memang best2.. :)

nak dengar lagu ni.? first thing yg korang akan dengar bila bukak blog ni, tu la lagu dia.. ade kat playlist dlm blog aku ni.. :)

toddles.!

p/s : FOCUS ckit dengan lyrics yg di-highlight kan..tq.. :)

some...

okay..this time i am talking in sarawak language..because SUKAHATI aku lah nak tulis in what language kan.. =.="


anyway, post tok sikda kenak mengenak dgn yg mati, cuma yg hidup jak..and to those yg hidup ya, hope boleh paham apa yg aku mok sampeykan..since everything is getting more complicated and salah faham makin menjadi2..


bukan niat aku mok polah jaik..sumpah demi Tuhan, aku bukan jenis gya..aku sik kan bencik, jaik & dendam tanpa sebab..dalam hidup aku, cuma ada sorang jak yg aku bencik, jaik & still ada rasa dendam, bukan dikalangan kawan2, ahli keluarga atau siapa2 jak..just this one woman, yg bukan jak dah rampas kebahagiaan aku..bagi aku, aku sik kisah mun nya jaik aku sorang jak..tp bila nya dah polah hidup mak aku huru hara juak, ya paling aku anti..n for those yg rasa aku jaik ka, bencik ka, or dendam ngan takorg ka, SUMPAH aku sikda gya..sebab ktkorg sik ngaco mak aku..paham.?


for this one person..a fren..yg rasa aku ngumpat blakang nya..before ko padah ya semua, aku mok ko sedar ckit..jgn nak tudoh sebarang..memang semua org sik perfect, termasuk aku juak..tp ko ada fikir sik.? aku, aku sik pernah polah org mcm tok melainkan ada sebab..and utk pengetahuan aku juak, KO LAH KAWAN AKU YANG FIRST POLAH AEK MATA AKU NITIS SEBAB PERANGEY KAU..ko ingat aku jaik kau..aku sik kan maok and sik kan jaik kan org tanpa sebab..ko ada fikir sik, sebab aku melayan ko gtok.? sebab aku dah sik berklaka ngan kau and make don't know.? ko ingat aku maok ka molah kawan2 aku mcm ya..?? u should think on urself how u threat people..aku sik sangka juak aku dipolah mcm tok oleh kau..aku dah cukup coba ambik ati kau..aku tolong kau sebab aku ada ati n perasaan..aku bukan jenis pengempang yg biar org terkapai2 sorang2..lagikpun, ko pun juak padah,"kelak kta sama2 pegi keja, sama2 diam serumah, sama2 balit kuching, etc.."..tp ney tuju semua kata2 kau ya.? paling polah aku makin terasa ati bila on 1 day ya, ko langsung sik bangunkan aku dr tido bila mok g keja..at least ko gerak aku ka tanyak aku g keja sik..tp langsung sikda..then on the next day, ko terus pegi keja sorang2, sik tunggu2 aku gik..apa ingat aku sik terasa hati ka ko polah gya..??? even before ya pun, mun aku klaka, ko mcm layan sik layan..aku senyum kat kau pun, ko buat2 sik nampak..sampey aku polah mcm2 mok ambik ati ko..tp last2, ko balas aku gtok..aku tahan hati sbb aku mok JAGA HATI KAU..tp last2, aku jadi sik tahan juak bila di polah gya..bukan bunyi aku nak ngungkit pa semua..SUMPAH perangey aku bukan gtok..boleh tanyak kawan2 aku lain..aku bukan jenis gtok..aku jenis cepat cayak orang, jenis x kempang, sikit2 mok kesian..n sebab perangey aku gya lah kwn2 aku byk ngrepak ngan aku jgn bait glak..tp sebab aku MANUSIA bah..bukan tunggul kayu..then bila dah ko mok semua sorang2, and aku paham lah, ko mok hidup sorang2..ko sik perlu aku..sikpa..aku sik pernah mok jaik kan kau juak..SIK PERNAH..mun ko nangga aku berklaka ngan org, ya sebab aku meluah perasaan..aku akan tyk org, apa salah aku sampey ko mok layan aku mcm ya..mun bena lah aku ada salah, aku mintak maaf dari hujung rambut sampey hujung kaki..and aku sik pernah mok bencik kau, sik pernah mok jaik kau..aku pun org juak, ada hati perasaan..aku pun sik sempurna..apa yg sik sempurna aku ya, ko tegur jak terus..insyaAllah aku akan ubah..bukan dgn cara mcm tok..ko ingat, aku sikda ka keinginan mok klaka ngan kau.?? stiap kali ku nangga kau, aku mok senyum mcm biesa, mok klaka mcm biesa..sebab aku bukan jenis mcm tok..SUMPAH AKU BUKAN JENIS MCM TOK..it just, u try to think urself lah kenak aku jd mcm tok..smpey aku boleh nitis aek mata..just think lah..


apa2pun, aku mintak maaf kat kau mun polah ko gya..aku mena2 mintak maaf ngan kau..kadang2 aku pk juak perasaan kau..memang aku tiap2 kali pk..aku dah cuba mok bebait ngan kau, tp ko berik respon negatif..sakit hati aku bah dipolah gya..last2 bagus biar jak lah..aku tok sekadar ngaco idup ko jak kan..ko mok polah apa2, polah jak lah ko sorang2..just ko jaga dirik ko mena2..


sekian..

again, new LOVE.. =)

first of all, nak wish, Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Puasa utk tahun ini..puasa, jgn tak puasa..nnti kena soal jawab ngan Allah s.w.t.. :) syukur alhamdulilah aku masih hidup untuk menemui puasa pada tahun ini..sorry baru wish sekarang, dah masuk hari ke-4 puasa dah pun..hee.. :D and dah 3 hari gak aku demam.. :( hari pertama puasa, alhamdulilah sihat..dah masuk hari ke-2, mula la sneezing..then semalam makin teruk..hari ni terus tak g keje, sebab tak larat..almost nak tengahari, baru bley angkat n mandi.. =.=" however, eventough demam, aku still berpuasa dan mengikut suruhan-Nya..ye la, bukan sakit nazak pun kan..no reason utk tidak berpuasa..and disebabkan tak sakit nazak pun n cuti utk hari ni, so nak update blog ckit.. :)


anyway, what with "again, new LOVE."..?


last year, bulan December, aku pernah buat an entry with the same title..it just kali ni aku tmbh "again" kat bhgian depan..hehe..


tengah2 demam, then terima plak berita baik, memang cepat baik la demam aku.. :D yes..i have my new love..my new light, new life and new breathe..become a part of my life, start today..and i am really sure, i love him so so so much..pendek kata, my everything lah.. :)

welcoming him into my life..

my new born nephew..~ :)

isn't he's too cute..? oh gosh.! i feel so blessed..syukur alhamdulilah, Ya Tuhan atas rezeki Mu di bulan yg penuh rahmat ini.. :)

deliver on 4.00 a.m, 4th August 2011..

congrats to my Abg Janto & Kak Nurul for ur new baby born..!

dah 2 org anak diorang..syukur, syukur..

the first one, is a girl, name Dania Batrisyia..

and this 2nd one, a boy..name? my abg still tak nak bagitau..suprise konon..cis.! ckp je la takde idea lagi nk bagi anak ape..hahahha.. :P

since semua anak2 buah aku name start with D, *mcm name aku gak, start dr D..hee*..

already have Danial, Dania & Darwish..

how about this forth one.? who knows..maybe start with D gak..

haish.! nape la abg aku ni secret sgt tak nak bgtau..benci betoi la.. =.="

but anyway, i am so happy today..yeay.!

smiling all day long..~

can't wait to meet him..uhuk..nak peluk cium muah2 khas dari Auntie Diyla nih.. :D

for sure, i miss all my nephews and nieces.. :(( can't wait to meet them..

and according to my sister, this new baby born with both of his parents and his sister akan dtg Kuching after Raya end..diorang kat Kudat currently, sbb abg aku mmg dah lama kena transfer ke Sabah...huhu...

seriously can't wait ehss.!

lepas Raya, for sure aku still kat Shah Alam...huaaa..! sobss..

it's okay..my sister ade ajak g Kudat nnti..yes.! nak join pegi..boleh bercuti sekali memandangkan nak tunggu sambung degree lama lagi, which is on next year bulan Mac..hee.. :D

okay..control urself for today, Diyla..teramat excited tetiba..hee.. :P

anyway, lagi ada 2 minggu before balik Kuching..yeay.! raya.! raya.! :D rindu Kuching so much..rindu mak, rindu sahabat2, rindu family, rindu bilik sendiri, and rindu kereta...uhukk...

takpe..sabar itukan separuh drpd iman..

:)

p/s : weird huh.? since aku anak tunggal how come leh ade abg kakak.? haha..they are my cousin actually, cousin belah bapak..but since kteorg grew up together, and agak rapat, so they've become my brother n sister.. :)

ubah angin :)

anyeonghaseyo.... :)


hee..sorry lama dah tak update blog..busy..teeeheee..dah abis keja selama 10 hari,cepat sungguh masa berlalu..~dgn kwn2 aku yg sebok ajak aku klua..ramai nya yg ajak aku outing.! huk3..aku tak leh dok diam dlm rumah..kena klua..even klua tanpa hala tujuan, aku mesti klua gak..tak tahan dok diam dlm rumah...it's the memories..u know.? the memories..it's still haunting me..sakit tau..and most important, nak balik Shah Alam cepat2..bukan dah tak suka tggl kat tmpt kelahiran sendiri, it just, those memories..menyakitkan aku..so the conclusion, aku nak balik awal ke Shah Alam..biar la ramai yg kata, "dila, nape balik awal sgt.? dila, balik la lambat sikit. dila, buat ape balik sane cepat sgt? bkn ade mende pun. dila, awal sgt balik tu"..those are people saying..aku tak kisah la..diorang tak paham rasa sakit aku..i just smile n saying,"i need to move on..in new place.. :)"..yes, memang hal dah berbulan2 berlaku, and aku di Kuala Pilah utk jangka masa yg lama (4 bulan okay..bagi aku lama tu..haha)..but still, belum cukup utk aku pulihkan diri sendiri..sometimes, i still cry at night, and still thinking about it..even with my huha-huha, happy go lucky, gila2 and smiling, but i still crying at night, kadang2 sampai bengkak2 mata tau..huhu..takpe..times will heal everything..and my upcoming Practical Training, hope aku jd busy smpai lupa benda lain.. =)


oh ya..currently, aku jadi slh seorang peminat K-Pop (Korean Pop), also K-Drama (Korean Drama)..pendek kata, aku minat korean la skrang..wuwu..aneh kan.? dulu, sebelah mata pun aku tak pandang..hahaha..sekarang, lagu2 korean aku dah hafallll....perghh..haha.! kwn2 aku ade gak yg pelik tengok tetiba aku minat korean..mak aku lagi la, boleh plak dia ingat anak dia nih buang tebiat.. =.=! ni semua bermula dari program realiti Family Outing, one of reality program kat Korea..kwn aku yg bernama Liza ni punye pasal lerr..ngee..dia yg mula2 ajak aku tengok rancangan tu..mula2 aku buat layan tak layan je..skali last2, hambek hengkauu, satu malam aku menghadap dok dpn laptop melayan rancangan tu...hahaha..bayangkan lah, ke-obses-an aku terhadap Korea2 nih mula beberapa hari before final exam nak mula..hilang kejap fokus aku nak study..haha..nasib baik cepat sedar..kalau tak, aku pun tak tau ape nak jadi..entah2, ape yg akan aku jwb time exam, mesti semua tulisan korea je,..heee... :P

Big Bang.! i lovveeee them soooo much.! lagu2 diorang very the awesome.! hee..from left : T.O.P,Seungri,Taeyang,DaeSung and G-Dragon..paling handsome i guess, Taeyang..tp aku minat DaeSung more coz he's cute and suara yg best, make me melting.! :D 

DaeSung..!! cuteeee sangatttt..!! gerammm....dia senyum sgt2 menghasilkan satu ekspresi yg dia betul2 happy..he's one of the co-host dalam realiti program Family Outing tu..dan dia sangat2 funny, happening, cute, eventough sometimes dia jadi dumb..haha..even gelaran dia dlm rancangan tu is the dumber..hee..dia sangat2 comelll..rse macam nak lempang laju2 je...waaa...ahhaha.. :P na saranghae, DaeSung.! :D
  

MBLAQ.! their music are superb.! anak2 didik Rain..that's the reason why diorg punye music sgt2 high quality, dari segi rhythm and the lyrics..dan sbb tu jugak la diberi name MBLAQ, which means Music Boys Live in Absolute Quality..heee... =) they are Mir (rap), G.O (main vocal), Seung Ho(leader, vocal), Joon (vocal, dance), and Cheon Dung (dance, rap)..seriushit,music diorang sgt best..i have their first album.hee..

okay..those are two groups yg aku suka..ade banyak lagi group actually...tp both most of the most yg i like..~ hee..and also, currently, i try to learn korean language..agak susah utk disebut, tp kind of easy nak tulis tulisan korean..hehehe..takpe2..lama2 okay lah..nnti dah degree ambik 3rd language korean, dah pandai, tak perlu susah payah lecturer ajar..heee.. :) and also, aku dah pandai mkn mknn korea..Kimchi, Mandu, Denjang-Jjige..paling famous, Kimchi lah..mostly org korea memang mkn Kimchi.. :)

but p/s, aku takde la terlalu obses mcm jakun kat korean ni..just minat mcm tu je..a new thing for me kan..sekadar minat dgr lagu diorg, drama & movie diorg..itu sahaja.. :) tapi kalo dpt suami org korea pun best gak kan..? hahaha..mesti mata mcm DaeSung..sepet je..biji mata pun tak nampak..kalo senyum mcm tido je mata..wuwu..mesti dia pun comey gak.. (perghh.angan2 sungguh..haha) xD


anyway, habis citer pasal korea..hehe..last week, 16 May 2011, me, Abg Pjul dan kwn dia, Fitri, pegi ke UiTM Samarahan..nak attend konvokesyen ke-74 of UiTM.. :) i was sooo excited okayy..lagipun, kwn2 yg satu batch dgn aku kot yg konvo tu..intake of December 2007..tp diorg dak diploma, aku time tu still in pre-science..so thats why diorg konvo lebih awal dr aku..hee..giler excited kot tgk diorg konvo..i've become tersangat2 tak sabar nak konvo..huk3..takpe, habis praktikal, then aku konvo lah..nak pose sakan dgn jubah & topi konvo..and nak buat my mom proud, sangkut gamba aku dgn jubah & topi konvo tu kat ruang tamu rumah..heee... :)


done here.! nak layan KBS World plak..hehe..tv korea, channel 391 Astro, dah jadi one of my favourite channel dah..haha..annyeong.! :D

ujian dari Tuhan..

lama dah tak update blog..perghh..almost a month, i guess..huhu..sorry fellas..agak busy..before balik Kuching, busy pindah barang dari Pilah nak ke rumah sewa kat Shah Alam..then busy accompany my parents shopping kat KL..then sampai Kuching, busy with tahlil arwah my auntie..then tidur kat kampung, teman mak cik kat kampung..rase sedih sgt2 bila kat kampung..aku still tercari2, mana nenek..selalunya, if nenek tengok aku balik, mesti dia akan tanye,"eh, dila bila sampai..? lama tak cuti.?"..then if aku teringin nak makan something, mesti akn suruh dia yang masak..she's the best chef i've ever known..segala masakan dia, sangat2 sedap..lagipun, aku memang close dgn dia..sometimes, i feel like she knows me well drpd my own mother..dia sangat manjakan kteorg as her grandchild..dapat jaga dia selama seminggu time dia sakit dulu, pun aku terasa bersyukur sebab diberi peluang utk jaga dia..and i still remember her eyes, her touch, her voice..everything..grandma, i miss u so much..nobody can make me cry other than u..nenek sorg je yg boleh buat air mata aku jatuh, even dlm keadaan happy..actually, i am strong enough dah..alhamdulilah..tapi bila teringat pasal nenek, memang my tears akan jatuh.. :'(


oh ya, i have mention tahlil arwah my auntie before this right.? my auntie, i called her Auntie Jane..sepupu kpd mak, tp close dgn kteorg..sebulan lebih lepas nenek meninggal, auntie plak kena admit kat hospital. because dia ade breast cancer and liver problem. mula2, mak cakap, just liver problem sebab dia memang kuat merokok. then tak lama lepas tu, mak cakap she has cancer..and i ask mom, what stage.? dah stage 4. Ya Allah..stage 4..peluang sgt2 tipis..patut la auntie selalu pakai scarf and selalu sakit kepala & demam2..rupa2 nya dia sembunyikan dari pengetahuan kteorg yang dia tgh suffering from cancer..aku sangat2 terkejut..serius if korg tgk dia dulu, memang tak macam org sakit..she looks fine.even dia cakap dia demam, dia still lincah mcm org demam biase je..tapi rupa2nya, dia tak nak org tahu yg dia tgh melawan her kanser. then, 27th of April, habis je paper ke-5 utk final exam aku petang tu, paper Food Sensory, my mom called..dia cakap, auntie dah nazak. dia tak dpt bernafas without bantuan oksigen. dan aku plak, aku dah rse lain mcm..coz everytime aku dgr, if org tu dah tak leh bernafas tnpa bantuan oksigen, means something akan berlaku..i was with Liza time tu, baru lepas abes mkn ptg..then aku balik bilik nak kemas2 barang before dibawak balik ke Shah Alam.. then, before maghrib, mak call balik. she said, "dila, please be tough for this time okay..ur auntie, dah xde..she's gone, dila..sayang jgn down keh..tgh final exam tu..fokus for ur last paper..okay.?"..and i was speechless..tak tahu nak cakap ape..aku have to go through one last paper before cuti semester, and terima pulak berita mcm tu..Tuhan je tau ape perasaan aku.. i was crying as much as i could..aku langsung tak sempat jumpa auntie, sebab memang sekejap je die kena admit kat hospital, then she's gone..dia dah pergi jugak, ikut nenek..memang tak tahu dah nak buat ape..then Liza, Miemah, Ubey, Fahmi, and sorg dua kwn aku keep me accompany..bagi semangat, jadi kuat and habiskan last paper exam..jgn sedih..then aku cuba kuatkan semangat..aku try fokus balik study for my last paper..tapi time exam last paper tu, i was totally lost my fokus..then aku pun tak tahu ape yg aku jwb utk paper tu..kepala otak dah ingat nak balik je, nak jumpa my family..


then, now..our great grandparent plak..a few days ago, dia kena admit kat hospital.then, semalam, my Mak Cik Angah said dia dah guna oksigen..then phm2 lah bila dah guna oksigen kan..dan ptg tadi, time azan Isya', Mak Cik Angah call lagi, ckp dia dah takde..Innalilah..baru lepas mkn tahlil 20 arwah auntie, sekarang, great grandparent plak yg pergi ikut nenek and my auntie..eventough bkn our real great grandparent, dia atok kpd ayah sepupu aku, tp kteorg terasa jugak..ye la, dah berdepan dgn 2 kematian, dan skrang yg ni plak..memang tahun ni, Allah S.W.T sgt2 menguji kekuatan kteorg..lepas satu, satu..mungkin Allah terlalu sygkan kami, sebab tu la Dia uji kami dgn sebegini hebat..dan mungkin jugak peringatan dr Allah S.W.T, dimana bila2 masa Dia boleh ambik nyawa kta balik..


Al-Fatihah untuk nenek, my auntie & our great grandparent..semoga roh mereka dicucuri rahmat Nya dan ditempatkan dgn golongan org2 yang soleh.. Amin Yarabalalamin..mereka akan sentiasa ada dalam ingatan kami..


dan buat nenek, aku akan selalu mengingat dirinya, merindui dan menyayangi nya.. i miss u so much, nenek..so much.. :'( Al-Fatihah..

the pressure... =.="

woot.! been days, (weeks perhaps? haha) i didn't write here ek....sorry sesangat..nyway, to those yg ade leave ur comment kat my chatbox n say hye n blogwalking tu, thanks a loads ye..hye back to all of u.! thanks coz sudi dtg jengah blog sy yg x seberapa ni, n nice to noe all of u.. =))

nyway, dah berakhir utk kuliah sesi dec'10-apr'11...skjap je masa berlalu kan.? dah nak abis semester ni..dgn byk sgt2 masalah n dugaan yg i have to go through...even sangat2 sakit, tp alhamdulilah, lepas jugak semua nya.. =)

and paling happy bila our final year project dah lepas..yeay.! Food Product Development (FPD) 2011 dah selamat dijalankan, last friday, 8th April 2011..dan alhamdulilah, product kteorg dpt 2nd place..itu dah ckp2 bagus.! senyum sepanjang hari.! :D thanks to groupmates yg bagi a very great cooperation..i still remember mula2 kte present proposal utk new product tu, last 2 month..18th February 2011, kat kampus shah alam..giler excited kte dlm bas sbb dah lama x g shah alam..rindu sgt2 kan.? hahaha...then dgn nervous nak presentation, dgn professor2, doktor2, bachelor's lecturer...kte punye lecturer plak sekadar memerhati & bagi semangat, x ley bagi penilaian, sbb diorg lecturer kte..ngee..but alhamdulilah, product kte di accept..cuma perlu ubah ckit2.. =) then 2 month bertungkus lumus nk bagi kte punya product success...dpt semangat dr kwn2, lecturers, parents masing2, dan hasil nya, awesome.! :D seriously, i didn't expect dpt 2nd place..syukur sgt2.. :)


then, kesemua lab report telah dihantar..phew.! juga business plan yg tebal pun dah submit..tggu nak buat presentation je next monday.. =)


also, byk sgt la great moments semester ni..together with the class..sama2 melalui busy, sampai tak cukup tangan..sampai aku nak update blog pun, tgh2 menaip tetido (nmpk bebeno letih nyee..haha).. :P kalo facebook and twitter memang aku slalu update..sbb tak perlu nak type pjg2 kan..hee..


p/s : post ini dibuat 2 hari yg lepas..aku just click publish post je since sgt2 malas nak menulis entry baru..haha..toddles.! :D