little Kimi.!

nama sebenar, Tom..nama penoh, Tom John..ade kwn aku panggil dia, Tom Cruise..aku bermain dgn dia, smbil sebut Tom Tom Bak..aku sndri bagi gelaran, Kimi kat dia sbb aku rse word Kimi tu comel..nak panggil Garfield tak sesuai sbb Garfield lagi besauuu dan berwarna orange..ngehehehe..he's sooo cute..! geramm..! mata bulat, badan gebu..~ grrr...rse macam nak gigit je..huk3..

little Kimi.! :D

umur dia dah setahun..kalo manusia, still baby..tp oleh krana dia kucing, so dia dah dewasa, dah boleh kawen..hehehe..sejenis kucing Parsi, slalu nye kucing Parsi pemalas.tp dia ni hyper cket..dah ade girlfriend..slalu lepak luar rumah p usha kucing2 lain..paling best, kalo dgr bunyi ujan, laju je lari klua rumah, main ujan..haaa...seumur idup aku, ini yg pertama..lalala..*menyanyi*..1st time aku tgk kucing tak takut air..kalo kucing lain, kena simbah je dah b'tempiaran belari..tp Kimi tak..dia sukaaa sgt air..pastu masuk rumah dgn bulu yg basah, buat org bebel je.. =.=" bulu teball..kalo dia duduk atas lantai, mcm carpet..aku gelar dia, moving carpet..muahahha..kalo duduk, tak senonoh..kaki terkangkang..aiyyaaa..nsb baik kucing jantan..kalo betina, aku mmg ajar kau duduk sopan..haha..
suka sgt bergurau..that makes me laugh smpai nak rak..hihihi..Kimi agak mata duitan..kalo aku keluarkan purse, dia mesti sebok gak..bagi duit syiling cukup la..hahaha...tu pun dia main kejar2 dgn syiling...ek.? syiling mane ade kaki..hahaha..dia akan tolak syiling, pastu kejar balik..kalo syiling mask celah2 carpet, dgn comel nya dia masok kan kaki dia celah2 carpet semata2 nak ambik syiling..kalo tak dpt ambik, dia akan dok tepi karpet buat muka bajet kiut n tggu sapa2 tlg ambik kan syiling tu..ahahaha..yg paling dia suka, main wheelchair..dia duduk atas wheelchair tu, n kteorg kazen2 akan tolak dia..hahaha..comel.! dia suka..
i love to hug him..gebu giler..lepas tu diri sendiri susah nak buang kan bulu2 dia yg melekat kat baju..wuwuwu..bulu dia skrang kuat gugur lah..tp still gebu..bukan mcm manusia..kalo rmbut gugur, kepala terus mcm takde rambut..haha..adoii..

i'm sexy and i know it..~ xD

he catch my purse..hahaha..! lompat punya tggi sbb nak ambik purse aku.. =.="

see...actually dia tgh try nak ambik syiling bawah tikar tu..hahaha..tp last2 dia malas, dia buat muka comel mengharapkan someone blh tlg ambik kan utk dia..hehehe.. =.="

target target..sapa2 yg berani pegang syiling dia nih, so samada korang akan kena gigit atau kena cakar..hahaha..

this cat, not only belong to me..actually, dia kucing my Pak Ngah..but since aku slalu lepak2 kat umah diorang, jd Kimi pun terbiasa main ngan aku..n Pak Ngah ckp, ni pun kucing aku jugak..hehe.. :) hari tu nak bwk balik rumah, tp mak tak srh..tkt hilang kena culik budak2 jiran..ngee..so, Kimi stay at my Pak Ngah's house..anytime aku rse nak main, aku p la rumah Pak Ngah.. :)

p/s : nak busykan diri sendiri dgn mengisi masa lapang, instead of duduk termenung dan emosi pun jadi unbalance..aku pun tak nak fikir benda2 lain yg menyakitkan hati..so, nowadays, most of time aku spend with my family..and also with my friends..and tak boleh lupa, tv..haha.. :)

my day :)

sorry for the late.! busy jadi bibik 2 3 hari ni..hehehe...nak update hari ahad lepas, tapi kalau dah balik rumah pun pukul 11 malam, jgn harap aku nak bukak laptop..dah la tired gila babss..~ =.="

last Saturday..for those who know lah, is my day..alaa..my day..bukan majlis pertunangan or majlis nikah aku..rilek bai..i muda lagi..10 tahun akan dtg baru la i nikah..bahahha :P..last Saturday is my birthday..and Aimi's birthday.. :D I am 22 years olddd... oh my..~ getting old.. =.=" mak asyik bebel, "dulu time mak umo 22, mak dah nikah..dah almost nak dpt baby, which is awak.." =.=" stress gila bila mak mula ckp pasal kahwin2 nih...ingat aku ni dah umo 32 ke hape.. =.=" dahhhh..forget about that..

anyway, Happy Birthday to my self and Happy 18th Birthday to Aimi.. :D she's my cousin, also my best friend..kepala ngam habes..buat jahat pun same2..hihihi..so, time Saturday lepas, we celebrate it kat Damai Beach Resort.. :D since dia ade modul (one of uitm activity), and dia habes modul pukul 6, so me, Ashraf & Qaedi meredah hutan2 dan bandar2 dari Damai ke Uitm Samarahan..perghh..sakit gak punggung aku drive lama2 mcm tu..dah la tengah period pain..sobsss.. T.T then, time way balik ke Damai, we did something..hahaha..biaselah saye kan, umo dah 22 perangai mcm belasan tahun..awet muda..hehehe.. :P ade pakwe2 hensem, ape ag, aku and Aimi confirm "feeewiitt2.."..haaa...ko ingat lelaki je boleh usha perempuan..perempuan pun boleh usha laki tauuu..hahaha..since aku dah lama single, and Aimi baru je single, so line clear..satu perasaan yg teruja hadir dlm diri bila buat perangai mcm tu..bahaha..*okay.ignore..* =.="

i'm 22.. :)

she's 18.. :P

the was so nice and adorable and awesome.! thanks, mak, for the cake.. :) kalau korang perasan, jumlah lilin tu adalah utk umur 40 tahun..ade 4 lilin besar..hahahaha...sebab mak ckp, 22 tambah 18, jadi 40..so tu jumlah umur kteorg..hehehe..pandai nye, mak.! :D thanks, again, mak..!!

then next morning, jalan2 cuci mata tepi pantai and main kat taman kanak2 with my lovely cousins.! aww.! iloveyouguys.! :D..also pegi ke kampung halaman mak no 2, Kampung Buntal (kampung no 1 adalah kpg panglima seman ulu) :) lama dah tak jalan2 kat situ, so cuci2 mata kat situ gak..byk perubahan..tp makanan2 laut sah2 banyak gilss..cuma tak dapat nak mkn seafood je..huk3.. here comes the picture.. :)

aku mcm mamarazzi plak..haha..they both mcm couple dari jauh..hihi.. :P

jyeah...i love you all.. :))

this little boy is soooo cute.! berlari comel gilaaa..waaa..rse mcm nak je pelok..tetiba rindu kat my nephew, Awish..huk3..

i'm chubby and i know it.. =.="

spiderwoman..? hahahaha

kanak2 ribena...muahahaha..

welcome to our house.. :)

ada Hospital Normah kat kpg.buntal laaa...hahaahah..*sape org kuching mesti tau Hospital Normah...hehe*

mommy, auntie and cuzzies... :)

the Hassan's+Jalaiha's grandchildren.. :) Al-Fatihah to Atok and Nenek..we miss both of you so much..

my mom, the one and only... :)

dah berbulan2 mak plan celebrate my birthday kat Damai..even semasa aku praktikal lagi dia dah plan..also nak buy a cake, cheese cake yg aku suka..so because of that, dia save some money, just for my birthday..not for else..thank you so much, mak..mak dah sacrifice too many things for me...gamsahabnida, omma.! saranghaeyo..! :D

a great weekend..with cuzzies.! sepupu semua sama kepala..and aku plak terasa muda bila ngan diorang..hahaha...satu je, i just can't believe, yg aku dah berumur 22..huhu.. :)

pa gik nak dipadah ow.? pandey lost ndah aku..haha..kepak juak ku klaka lepeh jak2..klaka sarawak gik..hihihi..k lah..nak chow chin chow..jadi bibik balit.. :P toddles.!

my boy birthday.! love! :D

constantly, boy you played trough my mind like a symphony..there's no way to describe what you do to me..you just do to me, what you do..and it feels like i've been rescued..i've been set free..i am hypnotized by your destiny..you are magical, lyrical, beautiful..you are...~ and i want you to know baby..

i, i love you like a love song baby..~

i, i love you like a love song baby..~

i, i love you like a love song baby..~

and i keep hitting repeat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat...ooo..~

no one compares you stand alone..to every record i own..music to my heart that's what you are..a song that goes on and on..~~

i, i love you like a love song baby..~

i, i love you like a love song baby..~

i, i love you like a love song baby..~

and i keep hitting repeat-peat-peat-peat-peat-peat..ooo...~

.....*lalalalla...nyanyi suara ala2 Selena Gomez...teeheee... :D *

today, 5th December 2011..setahun sudah umur..hehehe..yup.! my boyfie.!.Happy 1st Birthday to Areef Darwish..!! my cute and lovely and adorable nephew..! setahun dah umo dia..but still, belom pandai berjalan..still merangkak and try to berdiri sendiri..so cute..!! :D 

mcm cepat lak masa berlalu..mcm baru semalam Kak Mila nikah..which is on February 2010..then pregnant, bunting pelamin.. :) then 5th December 2010, lahir lah seorang bayi..my nephew..how i am so glad to have him in my life..my light..my sweetheart..he will always be my boy.! :D and now dah 5th December 2011..dah setahun umur dia..agak nakal, contoh suka naik tangga lah, naik kerusi lah, segala benda dia nak naik..org makan, dia nak mkn jugak..tp good boy jugak sebab jarang buat perangai..jarang nangis...nangis time dia lapar n nak susu je..paling best kalau dia ngantok, sanggup tahan mata kepala jatuh2..eiii.! geram aku..hahaha..aku suka sangat cium dia kuat2 pastu mesti dia geram, mcm nak jadi hulk pun ade..hihi..comey ape..last2 aku gak yg dia gigit, yg dia cakar..pipi aku pernah jadi mangsa habuan dia..kuku tak lah panjang, tp sekali dia cubit, mak datok, leleh gak air mata...huk3..

Awish.! auntie love you so much.! may Allah s.w.t bless you, and dipanjangkan umur..jadi anak yg baik okay..jadi harapan mama n papa..and jadi anak buah harapan kepada auntie gak..hihi..auntie nak Awish jd flower boy auntie nnti, time auntie kawen..promise me keh, syg..iloveyou.! no word can describe my love towards you, baby..thanks Allah, sbb bagi dia dlm family kami.. :')

mesti mula2 korang ingat real boyfriend..baahhaha..tolonggg laa..takde masa nak ber-boyfriend dulu..huhu.. =.=" ni bukan setakat boyfriend, tp teman sehidup semati.. confirm.! memang tak kan pegi dari hidup aku..hanya Allah yg dpt pisahkan kteorg.. :') once again, Auntie love you so much, Awish.! be my boy forever.! :'D

p/s : happy 22nd birthday to Ana (my ex-classmate)..may Allah bless you and have a great year ahead.. :)

BEST of GIRLFRIENDS :)

Twilight Saga : Breaking Dawn Part 1.. :)

on theater 24th of November 2011, kat Malaysia..delay berminggu2 dari US punya tayangan perdana..haha.. =.=" it's okay..janji dapat tengok suda.. :)
ermm..i was promise with someone, nak tengok citer ni sama2..dulu kteorg sama2 tengok Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse..even tak tengok kat wayang pun, just tengok kat laptop after download, tp last 3 sequel, kteorg tengok sama2..just us two..then, lepas tengok Eclipse, we promise, nak tengok Breaking Dawn sama2, kat wayang..tp dah takde jodoh...bukan setakat tak kan tengok Breaking Dawn sama2, even kteorg tak kan berjumpa lagi sampai bila2..sigh..enough with memories, dilla.! =.="
okay2..back to reality.. :) last 2 days, hari Rabu, bangun pagi awal2..gila excited..even the day before Rabu tu, aku dah prepare nak pakai baju ape..hahaha..nak klua date, biase lah..i miss my bestfriends.! :) i was too happy at that morning..hantar mak pegi keja..then ambik Sel..dlm keta dah bebel2 dgn Sel..haha..then balik umah sendiri kejap, mandi2, breakfast, siap2 make up semua2 lah..then around 12 noon, kteorg gerak g ambik Siti plak..i was so happy sebab dpt tengok Breaking Dawn with them.. :))
that story was awesome..so sweet bila Bella & Edward getting married..Bella with her beautiful dress..Edward looks charming with his suit..and a beautiful altar..just like a fantasy kan..huhu..and jadi lebih sweet bila both of them on honeymoon, with their first night together sampai patah katil...hahaha..ganas..~ =.=" baru 2 weeks kawen, Bella dah pregnant..perghh..that baby, human+vampire..and membesar sgt cepat dlm perut Bella..since that baby is so strong, dia sedut segala zat2 Bella, and Bella become so thin, pale and one by one her bone break..sbb ye la, Bella still as a human, anak pulak vampire, so her body tak dapat carry the baby sangat..most of time just duduk or baring..kesian sgt2..huhu..and that time, boleh nampak how protective Jacob and how lovely Edward..others werewolf bangkang Bella continue with her pregnancy..Bella tak nak gugur kan her baby even baby tu buat dia sakit..ye la, mak mana tak sayang anak kan..huhu..tp the werewolfs tak suka ngan anak yg bakal lahir tu, sbb bagi diorang, anak tu akan jadi sgt kuat and boleh menjejaskan diorang..and difference with Jacob, yg protect Bella dari diganggu others werewolf..Jacob handsome dowww..!! tak tahu nape, tp this time, aku tengok dia sangattt handsome..charming sangat2..waaa..~~ =.=" 2 months later, then bila come to the moment Bella nak beranak (bygkan lah, baru 2 months pregnant dan dah beranak, baby perfect pulak tu), Bella can't carry it lagi dah, she's die..*and time tu aku ckp dlm hati, rilek lu..heroin tak kan mati..haha*..and Bella+Edward's baby sangat2 cute..the baby is a girl..cute.! mcm aku..haha.! *sila muntah*..heee...and Jacob look at the baby's eye..and ade connection, mcm tarikan magnet between them..as i know lah kan, nnti Jacob in love kat anak Bella tu..so, tunggu lah part 2 punye Breaking Dawn..and oleh kerana aku ade buku tu, aku nak baca lah..hee..oh, Bella, yup, she's not dead..u know what.? dia dah jadi vampire jugak..muahahaha...dah jadi cantik and immortal..sbb ya, i know, Edward gigit dia time dia nyawa2 ikan nak beranak tu..Edward ingat Bella dah tak dpt diselamatkan..but then, Bella tiba2 bukak mata balik..then, to be continue on the next part..heee.. :))
while watching kan, kteorg tiga2 nak ckp fokus, tak la sangat..tp happy semacam asyik gelak je padahal citer serius..hahaha...aku n Sel almost all the time gelak, and fikir, how nak control Siti yg diawang-awangan tengok ke-sweet-ness Bella+Edward..hahaha...dulu time tengok twilight sequel dlm wayang, lepas tu mesti aku emo semacam..jiwa kacau..and messy..but this time, aku okay je..siap menari2 dlm cinema..ngeee... =.="

ya Allah perut aku..mengalahkan perut Bella time pregnant.. T.T tp memang aku kuat mkn sekarang..susah bila cuti berbulan2 dok umah je..ni lah jadi.. =.="

still, ya Allah perut aku...~~ =.=" i have to diet.!

anyway, thank you so much both of them..to make me the happiest girl in the world on that day..i love you both so much.! next time klua lagi keh..next movie please.! :))

and malam tadi..maybe sebab terlalu banyak gelak time siang, bila malam, menangis nak rak..sakit mata aku..huhu..sent text to Didi by saying how i wish she's here by my side..dulu, when i was in uitm samarahan, dia always ade for me, if i'm crying or in trouble..dia akan jadi pendengar, and then akan try to calm me down..and how i miss that moment..now, dia dah balik miri..and i'm in kuching..and kalau boleh, tak nak bagi dia balik miri, nak suruh dia stay kat kuching je..hukhuk.tp dia pun ade family..i can't be selfish..and last night i cry, so hard...next morning susah nak bangun kepala berat giler babss.. =.=" that night, Didi call me..as usual...dia akan tanya, what happened to me..why to sudden..aku sendiri pun tak tau nak explain what happened..coz i, myself, don't know what happened actually..sigh...to be truth, actually, i cried almost every single night..people might think i'm happy now, aku dah move on and forget everything, nothing bothering me no more..but it's wrong..i'm haunted by my past..memori2 lama yg aku tak suka and aku tak nak ingat lagi, semua haunting me back..they come in my dreams, almost every single night..and it's hurt me..sometimes even just take a nap pun, boleh dtg dlm mimpi..pdhl tido kejap je pun..and that makes me scared to sleep..and last night, Didi call and dengar lah dia babbling2...huhu..i miss her, so much..she understand me the most and always give a good talk..and she explain why aku jd mcm ni..why those memories dtg dlm mimpi aku...aku maybe tak nak ingat psl semua tu balik, tp part of me, still stuck with those memories..maybe sebab aku terlalu paksa diri aku to forget all those things..maybe betul gak apa yg Didi ckp..huhu..and we talk for almost 3 hours..sakit telinga..nasib baik call free..hee.. :') anyway, i miss you, Didi..lamak dah kita sik klaka gya oh..mun dilayan gik memang smpey minggu depan sik abis crita ta duak..huhu..glad to hear about you and 'him'..time tak duak break dolok, nang terok rupa, *just like me now, yg sikda perubahan padahal dah nak setahun*..then, u and 'him' sik bercontact then u couple with Man..seriously,Di, mek sik suka ktk ngan Man..kmk lebih suka ktk ngan 'him'..thank Allah, u and Man breakup..mun sik, huhhh..!! =.=" and now, suddenly u and 'him' jadi bestfriend oh..first time mek dengar ex boleh jadi bestfriend..hahaha..even tak duak pdh tak duak just kawan jak pun, mesti org sik cayak..mesti org ingat tak duak dah return..hehe..'him' dah ada gerek, but 'him' sik pernah nak hurt u mok klaka2 pasal gerek nya oh..i respect you, Di, and i respect 'him'..and i pray that ktk ngan 'him' can be together back..because only with 'him' jak mek nangga ktk memang bena2 jadi happy..tp mek sikda lah doakan 'him' ngan gerek nya break..just, insyaAllah mun ada jodoh tak duak oh..mek mok jadi bridesmaid ktk.! hahaha.. :D
and Ubey..i know u gonna read this..bak kata ko kan, even kta sikda lah tiap2 hari mesej, tp ko boleh paham aku..even kta sik pernah jumpa, tp ko boleh rasa apa aku rasa..tengah2 aku rasa down, mesti ko muncul..sik kira lah, ko mesej ka or ko post kat wall aku..mcm sixth sense jak..u r a good listener to me..thank you for everything sayang..i appreciate u so much..bestfriend till death.. :')

P/S : Moving on is never simple..But at least, it is not impossible.. :) and me, sometimes maybe i feel so alone and so down, but i know, my bestfriends always be there for me..they are my precious and my guardian angel..may Allah bless them.. :')

my sacrifice..

it has been a few days..rasa pressure sangat2..sigh..
i have to sacrifice a lots of things..sacrifice my time..and now, my money..aku terpaksa simpan angan2 aku nak dapat blackberry sebagai hadiah harijadi + hadiah graduation..sebab mak sendiri perlu duit sekarang..tak nak mintak ape2 kat mak, eventough aku tak pernah nak mintak barang2 mahal pun dr dia..even tough mak pernah suruh aku pilih nak blackberry or galaxy tab as a gift..and sekarang aku harus bgtau kat mak, tak nak lah gift tu..mak lagi perlu duit..takpe, mak..nnti dila dah habis study dah keja, dila beli sendiri okay.. :') nak bayar hutang kat Sel gak..i owe her some amount of money jugak..tp tak banyak..even dia cakap jangan bayar dulu, but still, aku nak bayar gak..kte mane tau ajal maut bila kan..so kena langsai kan hutang, kalau tak, tak leh lepas ke alam yg satu tu.. :) ngan ayah pun ade hutang..sigh..hutang sebab nak beli hadiah harijadi utk mak ari tu..even mak bebel sebab beli hadiah yg agak expensive, tapi at least i don't regret about it..even aku akan tersenyum lebar bila dpt beli something yg valuable utk mak..for her, i don't care..aku tak berkira,even aku rasa lebih puas belanja mahal2 utk mak..now nak fikir, nak bayar kat Min..dia dah tolong ambik barang2 aku kat umah sewa..nak bayar dia utk minyak kereta, tol, and segala usaha dia..appreciate sgt2 and ingat nak bagi duit awal bulan hari tu, tp sumpah demi Allah aku sengkek sangat2..this week nak bayar kat Najla gak sbb dia dah tolong ambik transkrip, bayar transkrip and charge utk post kan transkrip ke Kuching..not really mahal, tak sampai rm50..maybe rm20+..not a big deal..yg ade sekarang pun cukup utk bayar Najla..

sigh..i owe too much to them, with my friends..Sel, Mint, Najla, Siti Saba...Siti slalu blanja aku makan ABC..aku rasa serba salah and awkward..since before balik Kuching dah janji nak g makan kat Sushi King ngan dia, tp till now tak kesampaian..slalu sgt mintak duit mak..mak sndri pun nak guna duit..takpe lah, Siti..insyaAllah nnti k..cuti panjang kan.. :)

and this, i don't know how to explain..i guess, tak payah lah..simpan utk sendiri..even sakit, telan je.. :') nak nangis, nangis je lah puas2 smpai klua air mata darah..rasa burden sgt2 dlm dada & otak..i'm afraid with what future brings me to..i'm afraid of losing my own mind..i'm afraid of everything..everynight always having a great nightmare, smpai aku takut nak tido..and those hurt me..my past, they all come back, haunting me..Ya Allah..jauhkan semua tu dari aku..tolong lah..
no..no..no..!! enough.! i have to be strong..i need to be more stronger..aku tak boleh biarkan semua tu kacau hidup aku..i will try to make my self busy, even more busier..i'll try to be happy, even more happier..i won't let them disturb me again..yes..! i am strong, bold and happy..i will try to find my own ability to overcome each obstacle..yes, i am..even my auntie, didn't believe that i am happy now..auntie, i AM happy now, REALLY HAPPY..trust me..thanks for ur kindness and care a lots about me, auntie..dah anggap macam mak sendiri..i love you so much..and HARUS tunjuk kat ayah yg i can be a success person, without him in my life.. :')

p/s : I am currently making some changes in my life.. So, if you don't hear from me anymore then you're probably one of them.. :)

got sick..and passion..

maybe i look okay..but then.? only Allah knows the truth.. :')

i'm tired with this..people, they make promises with me..they give me hope..last2, janji entah kemana..hope terbiar mcm tu je..pastu bila dah susah, bila dah ada masalah, bila takde org with them, baru nak cari aku..baru nak terasak2 ngan aku..ingat aku ni patung barbie doll ke ape, nak happy kan diorang time diorang perlu je..bila tak perlu, dibiar berhabuk mcm tu je..kalau muka aku mcm barbie doll cantik kiut miut alololo sweet comel takpe la jugak..ni aku dilayan mcm patung..serious aku tired..and now i'm ready to hurt people back..no matter who..no matter what..once u hurt me, i will hurt u back, even lagi teruk aku akan buat..malas nak jadi baik.malas nak jadi tunggul..i have my own right..get it.? :)
anyway, last 2 week, dah jumpa doktor..bagi ubat..and ubat dah abesss...huk3..bekalan utk 2 mggu sahaja..and doktor dah inject something into me, i don't know what it is, but it change my hormone a bit.. =.="  and reduce my pain, a bit jugak..pastu 2 3 hari later, sakit balik..ommmooo..! benci.. =.=" this week, such a mess..sometimes i cry too much smpai bengkak gila baby mata..and Selasa, aku dudok sorang2 kat restaurant Rasa-Rasa, which is sebelah office mak..sementara tggu mak balik kerja, aku dok situ and minum..actually, kena tinggal sorang2 kat situ..and i cried..peduli ape org tengok..tp serious, hati sakit..bila dah plan cantik2 ngan sorang kawan ni, last2 boyfriend dia call suruh jumpa dia time tu gak..and mood aku hilang sbb time tu kteorg mmg tgh having fun, talking2 and babbling..alih2 boy dia buat perangai..*%@&#.! =.=" then aku ditinggal sorang2 kat restaurant not far from mom's office..tunggu mak balik keje punya lah lama..pheww..sakit atii..bukan sakit ati kat my friend, tp sakit ati kat dia punya boy..ptuih..then next day, same thing..aku punya sekang mata, dah la tak cukup tido..alih2 tak jadi jumpa gak..aku marah gila..marah smpai menangis..menangis bukan bermaksud sedih, tp sbb terlalu marah..aku baling handphone sony aku, smpai terburai and bateri tak jumpa2 maybe sbb terlalu kuat baling..huk3..2 hari baru jumpa balik bateri.. =.=" then i'm crying while driving and, someone, a guy, kat keta sebelah time berenti kat traffic light, tengok aku semacam..maybe he's thinking, why i'm crying while driving..marah..sangat2 marah..aku ditinggal sorang2..aku tak tahu nak harap kat siapa lagi dah..then, on the same day time aku marah and frust and rasa stress sangat2, Mint sent me a message..she tell about something, and i try and try and try to letak my problems ketepi and try to be a good listener to her, eventough aku sendiri serabut..i know she needs someone to talk to, and i try my best to be her someone.. because i love my best friend, so much..without them, i am nothing..maybe aku tak dpt nak tolong, but at least, i can lend my ears utk diorang luah kan masalah..maybe aku tak dpt nak bagi the best advice for them, but at least, diorang akan feel relieved lepas luahkan masalah diorang..maybe i can't be the best, but at least, i am trying my best..maybe kadang2 akan ada salah faham and dingin sekejap, but sooner or later, we will hang out together lagi because to be honest, tak boleh nak dingin lama2..cause they already become part of my life, and my life means nothing without them.. :')

okay..letih dah emo2.. =.=" anyway, nak share what is my passion, selain daripada Big Bang, 2NE1 and Dae Sung.. :) for people BB means BlackBerry, but for me BB means Big Bang (ilovethemsomuch.!) or Broadband Bangang (ihatethissomuch.! =.=").. oh well, hari tu tengok MTV EMA 2001 Belfast kat MTV channel..salah satu event yg WAJIB aku tengok (bukan live okayy)..it is because Big Bang is one of the nominee of Best World Wide Act..perghh...tengok la name utk kategori tu..macam kelas kauu mariaa je kan..hahaa..and Big Bang represent Asia Pacific, so the whole country of Asia berharap dan berharap diorang akan ngapp award tu, terutamanya aku, yg excited gila2 sbb Dae Sung is back after a few month.! ngaaa... :D dia involved dengan accident, bulan June kalau tak silap..then berehat for a few month..time Big Bang buat show utk Korean Music Wave 2011 kat KL haritu pun DaeSung takde..nasib baek dia takde..so tak la aku meroyan sangat kan nak pegi tengok..heeee...okay, back to the track..pasal that event..good news.! Big Bang got the award..yebbbbaaaa..!! mengalahkan Britney Spears tauu..chukaeyo, Big Bang.! (means "congratulations, Big Bang.!) :DD

good to see you back Dae Sung..i miss you.! do you miss me too.? *hahahaha*..perasan woh.! =.=" congrats to them again.! wish them best of luck..and oh, lupa, happy 5th anniversary to Big Bang.! please stay stick together, forever.. :)

done with passion with Korean things.. wish i addict the most..teeeheeee.. :)
last Thursday, ade interview..kat Lembaga Hasil Dalam Negeri (LHDN)..harap2 dpt keja kat situ, keja pembantu tadbir sambilan..sementara tunggu nak masuk degree..bosan dok umah cuti panjang, so nak keja..harap2 dpt lah keja tu..huk3.. :)
driving...i love driving, so much.! especially time stress.. :) my target, ade kereta sendiri sebelum mencecah umur 25..nak kereta Satria-Neo..i love it so much.! i love the shape, the design, the appearances..misi pertama bila dah ada kereta sendiri, nak tukar speaker and adjust sound system dlm kereta..nak bagi bunyi ''setap setup setap setup'' cket..haha..so bila main lagu2 club, dance or techno, the sound akan jadi awesome jyeahhh.! :D kereta sekarang pun aku slalu buat mcm tu, bukak kuat2..tp tak leh kuat sgt kang rosak speaker..coz tu speaker biase2 je..ngee..kang marah plak mak kan..hahaha..dah adjust sound system, nak kasi lowert plak..tp tak nak la lowert sgt kang kalo ramai2 dok lam kereta, tak bergerak plak kan..hahaha..then nak tukar rim..perghh..tinted kena gelap cket..and tambah mana2 accessories yg berkenaan..and dah siap modify, boleh bwk racing gak.. :D i love driving fast..jgn bagitau mak, shhhh...actually, dr rumah nak pegi office mak, ambik masa around setengah jam..tp aku drive, 15 minit je leh sampai..bahahha...tp bila ade mak kat sebelah, driving kena lah sopan santun cket..cket je lah..tp most of the time, mak mmg tak berani kalo aku drive and dia dok sebelah..dia takut, dia ckp aku drive dah mcm org KL drive..ngeee... sorry mak.. :D i love sports car..i love racing..i love everything about car and their accessories..i am seriously loved it.! and aku harap one day nnti, aku akan dpt kereta yg aku idamkan.. :D

anyway, aku rase mcm ade terlupa something..something yg aku tak pernah lupa..and till now, i don't know what it is..urghh..! benci bila try nak ingat tp tak dpt..waaaa...! =.="
whatever it is, nak wish Happy 46th Birthday to my Mom.! which is on 3rd November.  :D i love you so much, Mom.! wish you all the best, may Allah bless you and have a great year ahead.! :))

she's 46 but still gorgeous.! :D lots of love to her.!

 -the end-

toddles.!

finished already.! :)

apesal aku rse mcm aku malasss sangat2 nak update blog ek sekarang..adakah sebab aku memang dah jadi pemalas..? ke sebab dah jadi manusia takde perasaan so takde benda yg nak ditulis atau diluah dlm ni.? bahahaha..tp yg penting, aku malas..mcm takde modal dah nak cakap ape..huk3..but i warn u, I WARN U, this entry will be a bit longggg...since aku dah banyak modal nak bercakap..bahahaha.. kalau rase malas nak baca, tak payah baca.. :)

anyway, at last, tamat sudah pengajian aku..last day of practical, 30th September 2011..sangat sedih since dah become a part of the company kat tempat practical aku..dah kenal semua and dah jd rapat..3 kali menangis woo...hahaha...rse mcm klakar ade gak.. =.=" yg paling buat aku haru, ayat salah seorang worker kat situ..dia mmg suka carik pasal ngan aku..suka menyakat n aku plak balas balik kat dia dgn bagi ayat 'power' sedas dua..hihi..then, tiba2 dia bagi ayat sedih dia kat aku,"dilla..ko last ari ni kan.?aku nk ckp, aku mntk maaf kalo ade terkasar bhsa ke ape ke.ye la, ko pun tau aku mcm mane ckp maen lepas je kan..nnti ko nak smbung blaja lagi kan.?blaja betul2, setinggi menara KL..ko jgn lupa kteorg kat sini.."..erkk..aku yg blur, jadi lah makin blur..terkujat, terharu, sedih, semua ade lah..huk3..tnpa sedar, leleh gak air mata aku..tsk.tsk.. T.T and also, sorg abang ni, yg dah aku anggap mcm abang sendiri..agak rapat sbb dia tau ape problems aku..*aku tak citer ape2 kat dia keh, dia sendiri tau by seeing my face je..huk3*..dia slalu bg kata2 semangat, suruh aku jadi kuat..alhamdulilah, aku jadi kuat..*ye ke?* T.T but i'm gonna miss them so much..boss yang sporting, kakak2 yg sekepala...Puan Aida, Kak Zila, Kak Az, Kak Dayah, Kak Rai, Abg Man, Rosli, Botak, Kak Nora, Kak Ina, Pak Cu, Suresh, Asran..semua tu antara yg agak rapat ngan aku..terima kasih banyak2 sebab bagi tunjuk ajar dan buat saya happy..eventough dpt partner se-praktikal yg macam aii..malas la nak sebut..tp bila kat tempat kerja, i'm happy, sincerely..just because of them.. :)) 2 3 hari kemudian, Puan (our boss), ckp yg dia dah rindu kat aku..office mcm sunyi semacam bila aku takde..hihi..terharu nye..aku buat kecoh sgt ke dalam office tu..? maybe..selalu gak gelak tak hengat dunia..bahahaha.. xD .habis practical bukan bermakna lupa diorang..i won't forget them, i won't forget sweet memories with them..banyak memori-memori kat situ..dan during my practical training jugak lah mengajar aku jadi manusia yg lebih matang, insyaAllah.. :) once awhile nanti, ade lah aku jenguk diorang..dalam Shah Alam je pun..rumah sewa aku ngan company bukan jauh..20 minit smpai sudah.. :)

then for 10 days, berusaha sekeras segagah mungkin menyiapkan report and ready for the slide show utk presentation on 10th October..pheww..such a mess back then..9hb heading to Kuala Pilah with girlfriends, i mean my classmates..teehee...miss them so muchos.! Lala, Skin, Kechik, Yani and Nadiah...(syg Ecah takde, kalau tak, mesti complete..tsk.tsk)..whatever it is, but still we r enjoy our time at Pilah..since itulah kali terakhir kteorg pegi Pilah.. :) stay 1 night kat Hotel Melang Inn..and have dinner kat Pekan Pilah, and jumpa the rest of our classmates, and cukup lah 17 org budak class, as student semester ke 6 (sem akhir) utk Diploma in Food Science & Technology.. :) darn, gonna miss them so much.! rindu masuk class bising huha2, but when lecturer comes in, semua automatic silence and focus ngan class (tp ade sesetengah tertidor, termasuk aku..bahahaha xD ) tp takde lah always tido okayyy...huk3..i miss when kteorg tengah buat lab, havoc semacam mcm budak2 tadika dlm class melukis je.. xD i miss when dekat2 nak final, semua akan co-operate share notes, share soalan2 sem2 lepas, share ilmu, share semua..then before masuk dewan periksa, all raise hands, baca doa moga2 dpt jawab dgn lancar..i miss when time buat lab report, semua compare result nak make sure result lebih kurang sama, and mane2 yg mistakes, will be corrected..i miss everything lah.! huk3..and the most obvious co-operate yg aku pernah nmpk, time kteorg dipindahkan ke Pilah..time tu, mmg semua bagi kerjasama..and alhamdulilah, now we are all graduated..syukur Ya Allah..eventough ade problems antara diri masing2, tapi itu takkan ganggu prestasi kteorg and still, kteorg kerjasama as a classmates..i am so proud to all of u, classmates..!! gonna miss u all so so so much.! :')
3 great years, i will never ever forget..ups and downs, kte same2 dah go through..and now we made it..syukur kepada Allah.. :) hope to see all of u again, time degree nanti..insyaAllah kalau semua ambik degree course yg same lah..huhu.. :')) paling buat aku sedih, time masing2 gerak tinggalkan Pilah last Monday, after the presentation..after presentation, Sir Eddie bagi ayat fulamak, aku nitis air mata..huaaa...sobss..thanks sangat2 kat semua lecturers, tanpa diorang, kteorg takkan sampai ke tahap ni..diorang sangattt banyakk membantu, especially Madam Baizura, Sir Eddie, Madam Marina, Sir Ami, Miss Rohasmizah, Madam Suzaira, Madam Fuziah, and our head of programe, Sir Helmi, and also mane2 lecturers yg tak sebut name ..i will never forget them.. :') then, lepas sesi terakhir with the lecturers, having a brunch jap kat depan PTAR, bergelak ketawa, and salam2..and then, that was really really make me urghh..nak nangess..huk3..check out dari hotel around 1 pm..and while in car, dalam kereta, i cry..yes, i cry sampai tertido2 okayy..and Lala was babbling, "dilla, why u sleep.!xda org teman kamek klaka2, semua tido"..teehee..sorry Lala..muah.! :D after that, kteorg tak balik rumah..we r straight to Sogo, KL..karaoke..! yeabbbaa..! i love karaoke..release stress..and we celebrate our 3 years of struggle in diploma level.. :)) nak tau.? aku rasa sangat2 puas hati sebab dapat nyanyi lagu Big Bang and Beast without help of their original voice...teeeheee..dah boleh jadi org Korea.. xD 2 days in a row, aku, Lala and Skin g karaoke..me and Skin sleep over kat kondo Lala for 1 night..pastu bila balik Shah Alam balik, pergh, rase tired teramattt..nak sambung shopping ngan Skin pun jadi tak larat..huk3..then, on Thursday, Skin balik Perak..feel a bit bored, sebab my roomate, Sue, busy with her class, assignments, lab report, etc..mane leh kacau dia buat keje..and aku.? online, online, makan, makan, Korea, Korea tak kira lagu ke, movie ke, drama ke..pastu, tido, tido...zzz..sah2 naik berat badan..sia2 diet.. T.T dah balik Kuching ni, sah2 la makin naik berat badan..aigoo..teeeheee...tapi kan, for the very first time, aku rasa tak nak balik Kuching...tak nak balikkk..nak stay kat Shah Alam.. ;(( tapi HARUS balik jugak, sbb mak suruh..kalau tak, mmg aku tak balik..tsk.tsk..gonna miss my life kat Shah Alam..huaaaa...! :((

sigh..4 months of practical training, i've gone through so many things, too many tears and too many happiness...but it teach me how to be more strong, more independent and appreciate with what i have.. :') and oh, i can see which one i can trust and i can't trust, and so-called friend..kalau tak kenal maka tak cinta..tapi masalah aku, bila dah kenal, perangai macam puaka.. =.=" biar lah..malas nak pk..benda dah lepas..dah tak kan jumpa lagi, kot? huk3..and now, tengah pk, ape aku nak buat selama cuti 5 bulan ni, sebelum intake degree next year..hahaha..keje.? maybe..as a sales girl kot, tak pun, nak jadi tutor kat tempat2 tuisyen..not decide yet...tp for now, nak rileks sepuas2 hati dlm rumah..nak ganti semua tidor yang tak cukup time practical tu..yeeebbbaaa..!! :D toddles.!

back again.. :)

unbelievable..but believe it lah..huhu..yang sekarang, aku tengah menaip entry ini di dalam bilik aku sendiri, dgn memeluk patrick..hey.! i'm in Kuching.! :DD ramai org terkujat dgn tindakan aku yg tiba2 balik Kuching..just believe it lah..pagi khamis aku dok kat office..alih2, ptg dah kat airport and ready to depart je.. :) and ade gak yg dengki ntah hape2 ckp, "baik tak payah turun keje kalau balik awal"..heyyy...ko tak tau citer, jgn nak pandai2 buat mulut..mind ur own bisnes..aku tak kacau kau, kau jgn kacau aku..bukan kau yg bagi mkn minum aku..paham.? jgn sebok hal aku..and stop copying me jugak..fullstop! =.="

okayy..back to track..the reason why aku balik Kuching tiba2.? it just because, aku jadi teramat lemah..semangat aku hilang entah kemana..2 nights aku menangis n menangis..thinking about the past and the memories yg sangat2 buat hati aku hancur..and getting more worst bila hari Rabu lepas, mlm tu aku menangis..and bangun on the next morning on Thursday, mata bengkak gila..tak tau lah nape aku jd lemah mcm ni..dlm otak just fikir satu je, which is, nak balik n jumpa mak..that's all..balik n jumpa mak.. :(( bangun pagi dgn mata bengkak, then mandi..tgh mandi pun boleh nangis..n siap2 turun keje, on the way pegi keje, dlm bas pun air mata jatuh dlm setitik dua..*bajet mcm citer korea..hihi*..pastu smpai office, tak tahan, masuk toilet jap, n nangis..Kak Az dah risau tengok aku semacam..n tiba2 mak call..tanye aku dah sihat ke tak..and taknak tggu lama2, aku terus tanye mak, nak balik boleh tak..n mak pun tak halang..terus dia g beli tiket utk aku, n flight balik hari tu gak..10 am, keluar office..balik rumah kemas2 barang n makan ckit utk alas perut..pastu terus gerak g LCCT..ya Allah, kurang dr sejam before masa penerbangan aku smpai LCCT..nasib baik sempat check in & tak terlepas flight..kalau tak, memang aku nangis saat tu gak meraung2 depan semua org...huk3..5.30 pm depart from LCCT & 7.15 pm arrived at Kuching..and guess what, time on my way ke LCCT tu, dlm bas AirAsia tu, aku nangis..dah tak peduli org lain..biar org nak ckp ape..huhu..even dlm flight pun air mata jatuh..nasib takde org kat sit sebelah..huk3..don't know why, hati rasa sgt2 sakit and takde semangat and lemah sangat2 smpai air mata pun asyik nak jatuh je..sigh..and i need to meet my mom, utk dptkan semangat balik.. and now, dah jumpa mak..dah peluk cium dia..rase bersyukur sangat2..syukur alhamdulilah kepada Mu, ya Allah.. :')

another reason why tiba2 balik gak, sebab demam tak baik2..mak risau..dah 2 minggu aku sakit...last week dgn muntah darah, sakit kepala..n minggu ni demam tak baik2..so mak suruh balik..jumpa doktor sendiri..and i guess, mak pun faham thats why dia tak halang aku nak balik.. :') mak tak tau, anak dia ni asyik jatuh sakit sebab ape..mak tak tau, anak dia ni tiba2 hilang semangat melayang sebab ape..mak tak tau, anak dia ni slalu nangis malam2..mak tak tau, yg hati anak dia ni dah tersangat hancur jd cebisan cebisan yg sgt halus lebih halus dr pasir..mak tak tau, yg anak mak ni cuba sehabis mungkin utk teruskan hidup..biar lah mak tak tau..tak nak dia susah hati..tapi mak mesti dpt rase something since dia slalu tanye nape ngan aku, sbb aku anak dia.. :') takpe lah..biar Allah S.W.T je yg tau ape dlm hati aku..sakit yg sangat2, tak dpt diungkap dgn kata2..ya Allah, berilah kekuatan kpd aku, utk meneruskan hidup.. :'((

ubat-ubatan saia..huk3..inilah hasil nya bila 2 weeks sakit tak pegi jumpa doktor..hee..and since balik Kuching last Thursday, 2 kali appointment with doktor..the doctor said, i need to be more relax..don't be too stressful..unless, dia akan bagi ubat anti-depression kat aku 1 day nnti..waarghh..tak nak, tak nak..okay2..i will be more calm..tak de stress2 lagi..takde pressure lagi..uhuk.. =.="

now alhamdulilah lah, demam dah baik..just batuk2 and selsema je lagi..suara pun dah tak mcm suara aku sendiri..bak kate org sarawak lah kan, "mcm sora org angkat bujang".. serak..hihi..mostly sape2 yg call pun, diorang ingat aku nanges, padahal batuk+selsema..hee...dah 1 week mcm ni, tak baek2..sampai kan ade 1 saat tu aku rase mcm, lebih baik aku mati dr tahan sakit.. =.=" astaghfirullahalazim..Allah melaknat umat2 nya yg berputus asa dlm meneruskan hidup..aku tahu, seberat mana pun dugaan yg Allah turunkan, tak kan lebih dari kemampuan kita..eventough kta rase kta tak mampu nak go through, pdhl kta dpt melalui nya tnpa kta sedar..sebab Allah tak kan beri dugaan yg kta tak mampu nak galas..dan Allah turunkan dugaan gak sebab Dia sygkan kita..Dia nak kita jd lebih kuat dlm mengharungi hidup..syukur ke hadrat mu ya Ilahi.. :')

lagi 2 hari nak balik Shah Alam balik..waa..cepat nya masa..uhuk..tp tak leh, kena balik gak..dah lama sangat cuti..nasib baik praktikal..kalau keje betul2, mau kena buang keje aku..teeeheee.. :)) takpe, bos pun faham aku tak sihat..aku ade MC okayyy...
and also, lepas ni nak diet.! mesti diet.! uhuk...berat badan naik 2 kg after raya nih..sah aku makan over-dose time raya..hee...so, after this, no more fast food, no more junk food, no more oily food, no more carbonated drinks, pendek kata, no more un-healthy food lah..study food, diri sendiri mau tau la mana mknn yg healthy and mana mknn yg tak healthy..haha.. xD
semalam berhuha-huha with my brother & sisters & my nephews..main goleng2 ngan Darwish..poret2 with my two lovely sista, Kak Sumi & Kak Mila..and being punch by my brother, Abg Yan..hihi..semua terkujat tengok aku tiba2 dtg Kuching balik..buang tebiat ape.? bahahha..nenek pun suka semacam..cucu bongsu n kesayangan dia nih balik.. :))) si Darwish paling excited..can see thru his face..dia dok merangkak then dgn comel eee geram2 dia dok depan pintu tengok aku klua dr kereta..pastu tersengih lebar...aiyooo...knape anak buah aku seorang ni teramat comel...nak je gigit2 pipi dia tuh..huk3..masuk rumah terus peluk cium Darwish...ooh, awish, auntie miss u too..sobss...then saje nak buat dia geram, aku ganyang2 pipi dia, cium lama2, then dia marah, last2 dia gigit pipi aku and tarik selendang aku..padan muka kau, dila..kan dah sakit.. =.="" sungguh ganas anak buah aku yg sorg nih..grr.. T.T si Danial lain citer, ke hulu ke hilir ikut aku, sengih2 penuh makna..means, dia harap aku ade beli mainan la kat dia..since aku ni teramat amat baik ngan anak2 buah aku, nak mainan ape je aku beli utk diorang..and everytime aku balik dr Shah Alam, mmg akan belikan mainan utk Danial..tp kali ni balik secara tiba2, tak sempat nak beli ape2..hee..sorry, Danial..auntie promise, next month auntie balik Kuching lagi, auntie belikan okay.. :))
and yes, mostly kwn2 n family terkejut aku tiba2 balik Kuching..tak pernah aku buat benda mcm ni..uhuk..ade yg ingat aku dah buang tebiat..which means, buang tebiat tu kira mcm org tu nak pergi meninggalkan dunia utk selama2nya..and diorang jd takut dgn tindakan aku..hihi..no lah..just nak balik..sebab pertama, nak jumpa doctor sendiri coz sakit ni tak baik2 dah 2 minggu..sebab kedua, nak reload balik semangat yg hilang entah kemana and i need to see my mom A.S.A.P..sebab ketiga, sebab nak pulihkan diri sendiri.. :))

time to sleep..and oh, i've got something..baru lepas tengok citer Charlie S.Cloud kat channel 411 HBO..ade satu scene yg buat aku realize something..and thanks to the hero of that story, which is Zac Efron yg bawak watak Charlie tu..this scene, perempuan tu baru sembuh dr hipotermia sebab dia tersadai kat sebuah pulau tak sedar2 diri for almost 3 days, sbb dia pi berlayar sorang2, nak uji kapal layar dia boleh tahan tak kalau kena ribut..last2 dia tersadai kat pulau, tak sedar2 diri..org ingat dia mati..and si Charlie ni, dia tak tau kisah sebenar smpai la dia dgr kwn dia ckp psl girl tu yg tak balik2 lepas berlayar..yg lagi buat si Charlie ni terkujat, since past 3 days, dia memang spend time ngan girl tu...dah kalau girl tu tak balik2 lagi, so sape la yg dgn dia spend time tu kan..? last2 dia dpt petunjuk, yg dia sorg je boleh nmpk girl tu, n that girl, mintak tolong dr dia utk carik dia dkt kawasan yg kena ribut tu..last2, Charlie pegi la carik perempuan tu..nasib baik dia jumpa n dpt selamatkan nyawa perempuan tu..kalau dia lambat sehari lagi utk jumpa perempuan tu, possibility utk that girl betul2 mati maybe akan jd kenyataan..huk3..so sweet.. :)) few days later, perempuan tu sembuh..and dia bagitau Charlie, dia mimpi yg dia bersama2 ngan Charlie..kira ape yg 3 days yg Charlie rase dia n perempuan tu spend time together, tu la yg perempuan tu mimpikan..and then Charlie ckp, "that's not a dream..that was memories.."..and word Charlie tu yg buat aku berfikir kejap..yerp, aku slalu mimpikan hal yg sama..mimpikan si dia, which is sometimes boleh buat aku down balik..and lepas dgr script Charlie tu, aku sedar, yg semua tu bukan mimpi..semua tu adalah memori, yg akan sentiasa ada dlm diri aku..it's okay..even dlm mimpi pun dah cukup bagi aku..because i know, in realiti, semua tu tak akan terjadi lagi..and i will keep those memories, simpan baik2 and in secure, just for myself.. :')

toddles.! byeee..~

raya day - sambung - :)

hee..lupa nak selitkan skali dlm post semalam..teeeheee.. xD
lupa nak citer psl gift yg Sel bagi..dia bagi mlm sebelum aku balik..mean, malam dia bagi and keesokkan hari nya aku balik Shah Alam..rase terharu..nak je peluk2 dia terus..uhuk..hadiah tu so sweet..dia mmg suka bagi hadiah2 yg sweet la..hihi..before ni dia ade bagi selipar Patrick..alaa..selipar utk kegunaan dlm rumah..n bentuk Patrick..aku sayang sgt2 kat selipar tu..tapi entah mcm mane boleh ilang, time aku busy sangat2 kemas barang pindah dari Pilah ke Shah Alam bulan May ari tu..tsk.tsk..mau meraung aku kejap..tp lama2 okay la..dah tak meraung2..hehe.. :P banyak2 kali gak aku merayu mintak maaf kat Sel sbb ilangkan sliper tu..tp kan, mcm la tak kenal si Sel nih, rileks je..aku je yg emo lebih..bahaha.. =.=" tapi *brape byk tapi dah*, aku curios gila lah, mane pegi sliper tuh..maybe tertinggal dlm bilik hostel kat uitm pilah kot..waaaa..! sobsss...

dan skrang dpt gift baru dr Sel..sweetttt..cantikk..eventough tak dpt menggantikan sliper Patrick yg always dihatiku tuh, tp at least la, jd pengubat rindu...huk3..

cute isn't it..? aww..terharu aku..hihihi..dah la color pink..i love it sooo much.! janji tak nak hilangkan ag dah.. :D it is not patung actually..bukak kepala dia, ade kipas..kira Sel tak nak aku berpeluh la, then dia bagi kipas kat aku..hee..yup.aku kuat berpeluh..even tak panas, dan suhu yg sgt2 sejuk pun aku still berpeluh..kdg2 la..aku tak panas pun, just tiba2 berpeluh..huk3.. but anyway, thank you so much my honey, Sel..!! i won't lose it again.. :))))

the day after aku balik ke Shah Alam, turun keje as usual lah..even rase tak brape sihat, tapi gagahkan diri jugak g keje..uhuk..bila masuk pintu kilang je, terharu lagi...waaa...diorang sambut aku mcm dah berabad-abad tak jumpa..haahahha..semua suka+terkejut+ter'jatuh cinta' with my new appearance..hehe..then ade sorg workers ckp,"korang jgn kacau dilla..dia awek aku..langkah mayat aku dulu kalau nak tackle dia.."..hee..semua tersengih2 je..and aku dlm ati, mak aii..sejak bila plak aku bercinta ngan dia.? =.=" huhu..since aku pakai tudung, ramai yg excited, lebih2 ag yg rapat ngan aku..kat tempat keje tak yah ckp la..dah la diorang mmg gatai2..bahaha..and ade sorg abg ni, kira agak rapat ngan aku, dia ckp,"dilla jgn bukak2 tudung lagi k..pakai je terus..dila cantik & manis pakai tudung.."...aku.? aku tersipu2 malu la..ngee...aku tak leh kalau org puji2 nih..kembang semangkuk hidung aku yg memang dah kembang nih..bahahahha.. xD

okay..stop pasal puji2 semua..hee..then, Kak Az & Kak Zila ajak g klua mkn time lunch..lunch kat Secret Recipe.. :)) waaa...sukeee..! at last aku dpt gak mee Japanese Soba yg dah berbulan2 tak makan..huhu... :)

my Japanese Soba and my beverage *lupa name sbb pjg name dia..hee*..sedapppp sangat2..dulu time pegi ngan Kak Az je, diorang ckp unavailable..but now, dah ade..at last..lepas gak gian.. :D

makanan Kak Zila..dia pun ngidam spaghetti meatballs nih..last2 dpt gak dia mkn..kakak aku sorang nih ngidam2, ade 'isi' ke ape..? hehe..harap2 dia cepat2 lah pregnant..aku nak jadi auntie lagi..*padahal anak buah dah ramai* =.="

makanan Kak Az..prawn macaroni cheese & vanilla shake..macaroni tu sedappp...aku yg tolong dia habiskan macaroni tu..hehehe.. xD

okayyy..pendek kata lah, semua makanan kat Secret Recipe memang sedap2..tak leh nak deny kan kenyataan itu..hee.. :)
pastu kan, rase tak berbaloi mkn kat situ, sbb at last, time malam nye, aku muntah kan balik semua ape yg aku makan..pastu jatuh terbongkang tak larat nak bangun..tsk..tsk.. =.="

okay lah..nak undur diri dulu yee..mau layan crita korea mlm ni.. and oh, hearing Daesung voice, make me smile again n again..harap2 lah aku nikah ngan dia 1 day nnti.so that hari2 aku boleh senyum.. xD *okayy.berangan lebih*.. bye.! toddles.! :)

raya day :)

dah hari ke-11 dlm bulan Syawal..cepat je kan masa berlalu..huhu...rase mcm baru semalam aku balik Kuching, which is 25hb last month..and now dah balik ke Shah Alam balik on 6th September, which is last 3 days..sorry cause dah lama tak buat entry baru..been so busy..ye la, dah balik kampung halaman sendiri, tambah ag time2 raya, mmg takde masa sgt la nak update..uhuk..just active ber-facebook sahaja..hee.. :)

raya tahun ni, mcm sunyi..mcm tak raya je..entah lah..tapi sebab nak bagi jugak feel raya tu, tiap2 hari la pegi beraya kat umah org..just imagine, dr raya pertama, smpai la esok nye aku nak balik Shah Alam, asyik makan dan makan dan makan..i mean, aku tak la makan setiap masa..gila ke hape..hahaha..maksud nya, every house yg aku pegi *most of it lah*, mesti buat open house..tak pun, ade sediakan mknn for tetamu yg dtg beraya utk hari tu..kalau tak mkn, takut plak tuan rumah kecik ati..huk3..raya first, of coz la mkn kat our kampung kan..then 2nd day raya, mkn kat kampung belah ayah..3rd day raya, lagi lah tak payah ckp..kwn mak buat open house, so makan..pastu pegi rumah Sel, pun ade open house, makan lagi..4th day of raya, open house gak kat rumah kwn mak..malam plak, klua beraya with Sel & Ahtang, pegi beraya kat umah my abg, Pjul..kakak dia ade masak2 so makan lagi..5th day of raya, open house kat rumah my cousin, erkk..mknn sedap2 ade chicken butter so melahap tahap dewa..then rumah my auntie, Mak Ngah pun buat open house, mknn sedap2 gak, ade lotong, satay, mee jawa, perghh marvelous siot, so makan lagii..then malam, aku & Sel pegi beraya rumah Mint..mak Mint ade masak2 gak, dah terlanjur Mint ambek mknn so mkn lagi..uhuk..6th day of raya, pegi rumah kwn2 mak, ade mkn2 gak..mlm klua beraya ngan Sel ag, pegi rumah kwn2 kteorg..sedap mkn kek cheese kat rumah roza..hee..7th day of raya, yg ni lagi aku unbelievable pdhl diri sendiri buat..bahahaha..klua ngan Mint..pegi beli souvenir utk bos2 n kwn2 kat office..dah siap beli souvenir, pegi The Spring..dua2 teringin mkn kat Sugarbun..so mkn kat Sugarbun..then dari jauh, i can see sushi bergerak2..waaa..nak mkn sushi gak.. :P so we decide, mkn kat Sushi King jugak..teeeheee..tp before heading to Sushi King, kteorg pegi digi centre jap, Mint nak beli 3G function utk iPad dia..pastu ape agi, Sushi King mainnn..heee.. :D dah mkn kat Sugarbun, and Sushi King..mlm plak, pegi rumah my Anjang, ade mkn2...and mkn lagi..nasi beriyani, sedappp...tsk.tsk..and waiting for Sel come to my Anjang house..dia nak bagi something, since keesokan hari nya aku dah nak balik Shah Alam..wuwu..ingatkan dah balik rumah, tak mkn lagi..tp last2, hampehhh...Mak Angah dtg beraya kat umah aku..her husband suruh aku masak kan maggi campur udang, so aku masak lah..diorang suke sgt mkn maggi aku, sbb diorang rse aku masak sgt sedap, padahal maggi je pun..haha..tp aku tak makan maggi okayy..aku mkn laksa yg dibeli pagi tadi..uhuk..dlm 1 hari, mcm2 mknn masuk dlm perut aku..baru je turun berat badan, now dah bertambah balik..aigoo..waaa...uhuk..sbb tu org ckp, time raya2 camni, tak yah la nak diet2..confirm punye akan mkn tak hengat dunia...hee.. =.=''

paling penting, almost everyday aku ngedate ngan Sel..teehee..except raya pertama & raya ke-2 cause masing2 busy with family sendiri.. :) then start raya ke-3 smpai la saat nak back to shah alam, kteorg tiap2 hari jumpa..mcm couple kan.? smpai mak sendiri tension and berkali2 ckp,"kalau Sel tu lelaki, dah lama mak suruh dia dtg pinang awk, dila..jgn korang buat keja luar alam dah la.."..adess.. =.=" makkk..~ saia still normal la..no heart feelings toward homosapiens berjantina perempuan..uhuk..just ye la, hidup single..so mane de keje lain slain nge-date with my own bestfriend kan..even time ade boyfie dulu2 pun aku pun still gak klua date with my girlfriends..aku bukan jenis "oh time susah sunyi takde teman baru cari kawan"..aku jenis yg balance, jg hati both..boleh try tanya pakwe2 aku dulu, especially yg 'the one' before ni..huhu..aku rse sah2 diorang byk kecik ati sbb aku pentingkan kwn..bahahahaha..okay..enough for being fake dilla..ko happy kat luar tp dalam dah hancus lebur kena simbah acid dengan kepekatan yg tinggi.. =.="

before aku nagging terover2 dan terlebih2, i want to share some of my photos during my raya day.. :)) and i know, this raya, aku lebih luangkan masa with my friends, especially Sel & Mint..thanks to them cause make me the craziest person in the world.. :')

taken time raya ke-2..my nephew, Darwish..*anak kak mila*..so cuteeee..! geram nak geget2.. xD dia makin lincah sekarang..tp dia good boy..nanges time lapa n nak tido je..tak banyak songeh..bak kata nenek, mcm aku gak time kecik2 dulu..cool je..hee.. :))

lupa nak cakap..nak wish to one of my best friend, Izra..congrats to  Izra & Fitri for their wedding.! if i ade kat Shah Alam, memang i turun Rawang attend korang punye majlis akad nikah tau..uwuwu...akad nikah on raya ke-3..she's one of my best friend gak..aku, Sel & dia rapat since mula2 kenal time umur 15 tahun..and now, dia dah kahwin.syukur dia dah jumpa jodoh..hope happy slalu, kekal sampai akhir hayat and dapat baby banyak2.! happy sangat2 for them.. :D majlis sanding nanti bulan November, kat Mukah..dah plan with Sel nak g same2.. :))) 

okayy..gamba2 diatas was taken at Mint home..hee..beraya kat rumah best friend sendiri  tak leh setakat seminit dua je.kalo boleh nak sampai 2 3 hari..bahahha..*okay.ignore*..gamba2 tak leh blah..tu just gamba2 yg diambik guna laptop Mint..dlm iPad dia pun byk ape..tp dia tak upload ag..heee..anyway anyhow, i love both of them, so much..sayanggg sangat2..i mean, no words can describe it.. :))

dan gamba2 diatas, tak leh nak cakap..korang leh tengok ape makna gamba2 tu...hee..was taken a day before i back to Shah Alam..bergumbira ngan Mint padahal pasni boleh tiap2 hari klua date ngan dia gak since dia pun akan balik ke Shah Alam..bahahaha..bayangkan lah, dlm masa 1 hari tu, dua2 melepas gian dengan MAKANNNN...mula2 makan kat Sugarbun..ye la, kat Shah Alam mane de Sugarbun.uhuk...pastu jln2 kejap tak sampai 1 jam, masuk Sushi King plak sbb aku tergian nak mkn Salmon Sushi..tsk.tsk..less than 2 hours, kteorg masuk 2 restoran yg berbeza..hebat..?? hebat perut kteorg...bahahahaha.. =.=" anyway, ILOVEYOUSOMUCH,SHARMEENSARKAWI..! thanks for everythingggg.. :))))

erkk..panjang plak bebel aku kan.? hahahaha.. ;P
anyway, alhamdulilah hari ni dah sembuh ckit..malam semalam sangat2 teruk..muntah non-stop..ubat yg aku mkn pun terkeluar balik..mula dah penyakit..cuma kali ni agak teruk..sebelum ni just rase loya ckit2 je, pening2..tak la muntah byk..tapi kali ni, ya Tuhan..aku boleh kata darah pun klua kot.. =.="" ape ntah sakit, aku pun tak tau..uhuk..1 malam tak tido..air mata memang meleleh tahan sakit especially tang perut..mcm kena belah..Tuhan je tau mcm mane aku tahan sakit..tsk.tsk..become sgt2 lemah..nak duduk pun tak leh..tp HARUS klua masuk toilet..waaa..dehidration habis2an..nak mkn pun tak leh sbb tak leh nak telan, tp perut lapa..sobss.. =.=" then hari ni, dengan gagah aku pegi keje..masuk office kakak2 tersayang aku dah bebel, "dilla.! nape g keje gak.?? g la berehat lagi kat umah.."..ni nak halau aku ke hape.? hahahha..aku rse besalah dol tak g keje..cukup lah sehari berehat.. :) tp terharu aku bila diorang semua care pasal aku..suruh aku duduk je, tak yah buat keje..tak yah sebok2 nak masuk production..bos pun risau..hihi..ade sorg ckp,"dilla belakon..dia lemah tu, tp belagak kuat..suruh g klinik tak nak.."..teehee..bukan tak nak g klinik, tp tak larat nak gi time sakit2 semalam..kaki tak kuat..uhuk...and thanks to my bos, Puan Aida, bagi ubat untuk hilangkan rase mual2..pil charcoal..lepas mkn ubat tu, baru rse lega ckit..mknn dah boleh ditelan..hee..thank you semua yg care so much about me..even Sel yg jauh nun di Kuching pun tiap2 saat text aku tanye dah okay ke tak..kalau ade ape2, gtau dia terus..huk3.. :')

okay dah..malas nak tangkap leleh sangat mlm2 cmni..aku nak g tido je lah..esok nak bgn awal, keje..and i'm waiting for this sunday.! nak klua date with Mint.! :D
bye2..toddles.!

p/s : I hate you. I don't miss you and i don't care. I just lied three times today. :'(